In My Mind

Love, Maybe (L,N+F--Pt 2) (Beyoncé x Michelle)

2014

It was December and Beyoncé was frustrated with an almost two year old Blue who refused to take a nap. Beyoncé never pictured her life being this way. She was grateful to God for blessing her with another baby but with Jay always gone it was beginning to weigh on her. She always pictured having kids and being married to someone else. Now she and that someone else barely talk. They went from friends to lovers to friends to barely associates.

Beyoncé didn't realize she was crying until she heard her daughter's voice, "No cry mama."

Blue came over and climbed into her mothers lap and began to wipe her tears. Mama Tina just happened to be coming into the house and looked at her daughter knowing exactly what was wrong with her. She missed the best thing that ever happened to her. Mama Tina talked to Michelle on almost a daily basis, she knew about her daughter's love affair. Some years ago when they were touring for Destiny Fulfilled she had stopped by the girls room to see if they wanted to go to lunch. She heard sounds coming from Beyoncé's bedroom and knew immediately what was going on behind that closed door and with who. She had watched the women's interactions and knew that they were in love with each other so something was bound to happen.

Mama Tina wished that they lived in a world where the women could be free to love each other but they weren't and over the years their romantic relationship had cooled and it hurt their friendship. She studied her daughter closely as she held a now sleeping Blue. Beyoncé wiped the rest of her tears and slowly got up taking Blue to her room to nap. Once she put her down she joined her mother in the kitchen.

"Can you please tell me what happened?"

"We went our separate ways and life started coming at us fast."

"I think that you guys need to talk."

"I want to, so bad, but nowadays she barely gives me a response when I call or text her."

"You won't know unless you try Bey."

"Okay Mama I will contact her."

"Good, here's her other number just in case and invite her to the New Years Party."

As Beyoncé stared at the number on her mother's phone screen she thought back to what had happened between them. It wasn't pretty and it wasn't completely her fault. Let's go back to 2006.

May 2006

The two women were in a hotel after having just finished a three hour sexcapade. Laying in bed they were cuddled up and just enjoying the quiet. The room was on the top floor of an exclusive New York hotel. While both women were dating other people they still made time to see each other. Both women had done a few different projects since the Destiny Fulfilled tour and life had come at them fast. Their time together was sacred to them but it was about to be intruded upon. Their outside lives were getting ready to put a wedge in their relationship. Beyoncé dreaded what she was about to tell Michelle but it needed to be said. Things were going in a direction that could potentially hurt them both. 

"Belle," Beyoncé said lowly.

"Yes, Babe?"

"I don't know how to say this but..."

"Just tell me Bey."

"Well Shawn and I are getting serious and I feel like I need to ride out wherever this is going to go. Remember our promise to tell our significant others?"

"Yes, I remember."

"Well I umm, don't want to tell him. He's a hood dude and I don't think he'll understand."