Remember me.

finding out

*skips to leaving camping*
Connors pov
Today we are leaving, its a mixture of happiness so i can have a shower but sadness because ive been having 'troye' moments every night. Do i regret every second with troye? No. Do i feel bad for cheating? A little, i dont know why but i think that tyler is just a little high school crush kinda thing, like someone you desperately want and when you finally get him you dont want him anymore and have moved on, thats whats happened, i want troye not tyler. Tylers cute but not troye, troye is literal perfection, everything about him. Everyone has already finished packing up their stuff including the tents, the cars are packed and now we are working out the car arrangements. "Ok so connor troye, tyler, ebony and sam in one car," kian said tossing his keys to tyler. "SHOTGUN" ebony calls giving me a wink, does she know whats up? "Ok" sam whines. "Aww baby" ebony says kissing sam, its gets heated quickly. "Ew no stop the PDA infront of your twin brother please" tyler says putting his hands over his eyes. "Oh please ty, like we didnt see you and con going at it the other night" she sasses back "ohhhhh" trevor says, "gross but ohhhh" ahh gotta love the kids innocence, i think. We get into the cars, kians car has a sheild thing in between the front seats and the back seats. Perfect, "this is good" troye whispers, "but what about big mouth over there" i ask. "Oh yeah" troye says returning to his normal self not his flirty self. We set off in our long journey home stopping at a few pit stops on the way, i look over to sam and see hes finally asleep. Tyler and ebony are their usual chatty selves in the front where they cant see us, troye basically grabs my face and starts kissing me "wow" i breathe, we are making out as queit as possible considering my boyfriend was in the front, we stop after a few minutes because we hear sam waking up as we slowly pull into the drive way of our house. "Are we here?" Sam asked drowsily "yep" i say popping the p. We all get out and help bring everyones stuff, the other car arrives shortly after us, we all get inside and go straight for the couchs, we sit down at the same time "ahhh" we said in unison. "I have reception" trevor yelled. "We all do" i yell back, "we all do" he says in a mocking tone "what ever trevor" i say and evryone starts laughing, "guys we need to upload the video" ricky says after we calmed down. Kian got onto editing and we all went to our twitters, rickys, troyes and tylers were the only ones who had a decent amout of followers because of their careers so far. "I tagged everyone in my tweet so hopefully people will start following yous soon" ricky said and troye and tyler say the same. As our followers went up kian had finished with the editing and jc had done some channel art. "Ok here we go." I say as sam is about to press the upload button. "Yess" we all scream, we wait abit for it to upload so everyone went and got showers and freshened up. Around two hours later we were all down stairs and trevor was sitting at the computer waiting so he could open the comments the read them, i hold tylers hand in anticipation. "Heres the first one" trevor announced,  "you guys are so funny and hot i cant wait for more" we all awwed, "more" sam shouted, "ok, six cute guys but more cute guys at the end, i envy their girlfriends except tyler and troye of course, #troyler 5evea" he read, we all bursted out laughing, we read a few more positive ones then we came across the negative ones. "Oh this is ruuude! You guys a bunch of fags with no life" i have to admit this one hurt. "Woah ok, thats rude" sam says. After a few more negitive and positive commwnts we deided to call it day we ended up ordering pizza and watching movies. Tyler snuggled up to me, i dont mind tyler now but i think i do love troye, he planted a kiss on my lips before resting his head on my chest. We were watching the fault in our stars, i love this movie i managed to stay awaked while everyone else fell asleep except troye. I mainly stayed awake for him, he kept giving me signs to wait so i did, now that we are alone we can see each other, i motioned him over tothe bathroom, he quickly followed me. "Someones eager, " i whisper whilst trying to contain my laughter. "Shut up" he says closing the door and locking it then pushing me against it and starts kissing me, "how old are you?" I ask. He seems so mature for his age, "19" he says. We continue kissing for a while, we both get tired and just sit on the bathroom floor cuddling, "how are you?" I ask him as he moves to put his head in my lap. "Ok i guess," he tells me. I feel like we are one soul in two bodies, we fit perfectly together. We both are so in love but cant show it, i know him well enough that he is hiding something, i twirl my fingers in his hair, "seriously troye you can tell me anything" i say. He sighs, "ok. I havent showed or told anyone this," he said standing up, he pulled his sweatshirt up to reveal scars on either side if his hips, "god" i say standing up and taking his hand, "have you stopped?" I asked hopeing for the best, "no" he sobbed. He then pulled the sleeves up and showed me the fresher cuts on his wrists. "Oh troye" i mumble taking his wrists and kissing every single scar, we are both in tears now. "Im sorry con" he tells me, "dont be babe, its not your fault, its that fucking dickheads fault he did that" i say embracibg him in a warm protective hug. "Im sorrt i have to tell you but i love you so fuckong much it hurts me, it physically hurts me" he syas, "i understand i love you too, i fucking love troye sivan mellet." I say holding him for linger untik we decided to go to sleep, we shared a few more passionate kisses theb went to different rooms to sleep.

Hey guys, i have a lot to tell you so this a/n might be a bit long...

1. The characters, ebony is a friend and amber is my sister but in the story shes charli xcx but with ambers name. (If that makes sense

2. A sequel, i am working on a sequel right now and the cover i made for it i will attach to this chapter to ask your opinions.

3. THIS IS NOT EDITED, i am going to wait until i have finsihed to edit the whole thing

4. I ship tronnor now, not conler or troyler so thats why im doing what im doing with con and troye.

5. I updated the cover of this fanfic so it matches the one for the sequel but if you peoples dont like it i can easily change it back to the original one

6. I have kik now so if anyone ever needs anything, i am here to talk. About anything really, i wont tell anyone and im just here to help in general.

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