Remember me.

telling zoe

"Morning Connor" I say waling down the stairs for breakfast,  no one else is awake yet.  "Morning, do do you some um some eggs?" He was acting weird, I needed to find out, "yeah sure, are you ok? You are acting a bit strange." He looked at me straight in the eye, there was definitatley something wrong, "im not ok and I need to tell someone but im not sure who, it is o personal, indont even know if I believe it myself, everyone is going to judge me. Everyone is goung to hate me," no he was alnost crying, his eyes were blood shot and he looked scared. "Can yu tell me, you coukd trust me with your life. I am here to help,"he looked so shaken up, I had no idea what he wanted to tell me. He just kept cooking.

Connors pov

I needed to tell Zoe, I need to get it off my chest, I was so scared I had no idea what was going on. I dont know how long I have been feeling like this because I dont remebrr anything from before a couple of weeks ago, she had told me that I can tell her anything and I could trust her, it made me feel better knowing someone was there for me, I just ave had so much emotion the last couple of days, I have been crying myself to sleep, I couldnt handle it anymore, "thanks, can I spend the day with, because it isnt just going to come out, I havent really addmitted it to myself yet, its really hard," I couldnt believe how easy everything was coming out I knew I had to tell someone. "Ok, sure. Ill just tell Kian," oh that name, it sent chills down my spine,  "yep ok,"I think I blushed a bit becasue my cheeks felt warm, I moved my head so she couldnt see it, I answered her the most casual way possible, "morning lovlies," I didnt know that Trevor stayed the nightk they probably watched a heapmof movies or some thing, "moning Trev,"me and Zoe said in unison, then came out the rest of them with an extra I looked at him from behing amd reliezed it was Ricky, "morning everyone, i made breakie," I said not trying to draw attention to myself but the one and olny Ricky Dillon was walking into the room, he made youtube videos and of course I watched themm I wanted to make them. Kian went up to Zoe and kissed her forehead, Ricky glared at him and I felt a little bit jealous, but I hid thse feelings away, like I always did. "So, Kian. Me and Connor are goin to spend the day together, he has something very important to tell me," Kian did not look to happy, no, he looked furious. He didnt understand.  "nothing is going to happen, I barely know her." I reassured him, "can I come with you?" He asked, I jumped in staright away becasue I didnt want him to know my biggest secret. "Umm, no you cant but you will know later on if I decide to tell you, I think you will be the second person i will tell."  I told him with a smile, the whole roo  fell to an awkward silence, I gave everyone thier eggs and when I had finished I went u to my room and got changed into a pair of skinny jeans and a blue te shirt, I quiffedmy hair and went back down stairs and saw Zoe waiting for me by the door, "see ya we are just going to go now." I said, no ne answered, not even Kian and Zoe didnt say goodbye to him.

Zoes pov

I hated Kian at the moment, I knew Connor wasnt gojng to try anything. He was too hurt and he was hiding something, it was bad. Hr was beating hkmself up over it, we started walking down the street to the mall, "so, whats going on?" I asked, I don't know ifnhes ready to tell me but I kinda really wanted to know, but I wont tell anyone. "Promise you wont judge me or look at me differently?" He asked, he was really contemplating his life this very second, I hated seeing hkm like this,

Connors pov

"I promise, I would never look at you any differently, your still the same bubbly and cute Connor that I met a music festival." She told me, wow shes knows a lot about my past, considering I had proposed to her, "thankyou it means a lot, you have no idea," I was so nervous, I just wanted to get it out. I had no idea what to do, "do you want to si down somewhere?" She asked as if she took it right from my mind. "Yeah, lets go to starbucks," I said starting to head over to the cafe.

We sat after we got our drinks, "wow, this is hard," she looked at me in the eyes, she was caring, "ok, umm. I think I like, umm, ya know, oh wow, umm, Kian." I waited for the reaction so I put my head on the desk, "oh my god, yay. Connor, so wait, are you saying your. Gay?" She asked, that word scared me, I didnt knkw what to do, "umm, yeah but I dont know." She was staring at me, "well, have you ever felt anythng towards a girl? Like ever felt nervous or excited or something like that" she asked, I never really thought about it.  "Not that I can think of," I said, "well, how about guys, it might sound scary but dont worry its not." I think I might tell her about Kian, hut I think other guys are cute, but Kian s mean so I dont know,  "well, Kian is so perfect, but hes a bit mean to me, because hes with you and he doesnt want me to take yoh away from him. But other guys are really cute, like a youtuber Tyler Oakley,  he is actually perfection," I soon as I said that, guess who walked in, Tyler. With another guy? It looked like Troye, "why are you blushing, and I know who that is and im so happy for you, you should meet Tyler one day and ask him out." She said and I didnt realize I was blushing, I pointed behind her and she turned around to look and saw him, when she faced me she had the biggest grin on her face, "go talk to him, he is right there,"