Remember me.

Please come back

"Zoe. Connor has a ten percent chance of living. With not much of a chance people usually tell us to pull the plug, do you want this?" the nurse asked me, she seemed like she had asked that question hundreds of times. "No! I will not let you do that! He will come back, he will be here, he is alive, just don't do it." I was panicking so much that the staff asked me to go home.

I took a cab home but couldn't get myself to go in. I messaged the number that Jenn gave me and asked if I could stay overnight. She said yes and told me the address, I caught another taxi to their house and knocked on the door, Ricky answered and saw my face, I was still crying so he let me in and got me to tell them everything. At first I couldn't get it out, but then after a while it was easier to say. They both freaked out. They had no idea what happened, they were facing the other way in the café and they heard an ambulance but they thought it was just going past.

I tried to sleep, it was four in the morning. I finally fell asleep. Later in the morning Jenn woke me up to go to the hospital, I got up and got dressed. They walked me out to the car so I got in the back and they both sat in the front. Ricky drove us over to the hospital, I managed not to break down in the car until we arrived. I got out and medially went into the hospital and directly straight to Connor's room. Security tried stopping me but I just pushed past them yelling 'He is going to make it!' I got to his room and a bunch of nurses greeted me, they said that he was awake for about an hour last night after I left. I felt so relieved but he had slipped back under this morning, I sat with him, I never left his side.

Ricky and Jenn came in with food and drinks but honestly I wasn't hungry, I just wanted to be with my Connor, he was my life, I loved him, if that bus driver wasn't acting so stupid and follow the road rules, then this wouldn't be happening, at the scene the police officer told me that they would give a call when they have fully investigated what happened.

I don't know how long I was sitting there with tears rolling down my face but it seemed like forever, I just kept telling him he will be okay and I kept telling myself the same thing even though I was thinking to myself: 'is he going to change, is he going to look or be different, is he going to remember me?' these thoughts scared me the most. I hoped he did remember me, in a way I hope he does change but for the better not the worse. Afters hours and hours of no food, water, bathroom breaks, or sleep I only just remember that Ricky and Jenn were with me.

They kept telling me to go get something to eat or drink but I refused, I didn't need the bathroom and I didn't really feel tired enough to sleep. "come on Zoe, I don't think it is going to be today, we've been here for twelve hours straight, we all need some rest." Ricky mentioned, I didn't want to go just in case he woke up, I wanted to be with him but remembering all the good, fun times just makes it more painful. "Fine, if not today, then tomorrow. He will wake up, we will. Nurse, please don't take him off of life line, he is still with us, I love him." I needed to get that out, I was so upset, I didn't know what to do with myself, I can force myself to go home so I guess I will stay with Jenn and Ricky, I asked him if I could and they said it was alright so they took me home to grab a few things and they took me back to their apartment.

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