Remember me.

Telling the guys

*Kian's POV*

"he got hit by a bus Kian, two months ago." Oh no, my head started to spin, my best friend got hit by a bus, I dropped the phone in disbelief and started to cry, none of the other boys have seen me cry before, but now I don't even care if they did, it was uncontrollable. I have never felt like this, I think they heard me because they came over to me and helped me up, I heard Zoe faintly asking me if I was okay but I ignored it. I had to tell them, Jc, Sam, and Trevor. "are you ok?" Jc asked and then Sam and Trevor asked me, I was catching my breathe to finally tell them, "guys, Connor, has, has umm, dead," they all gasped and start crying, I didn't want to believe it myself and I wondered why she didn't tell us earlier, I guess she was just stressed out about it. "no, no, no, no, no, no," Sam said I put my phone back up to my ear because now I hear Zoe yelling at me. "Guys, no, wait, he is awake and healthy, just he can't remember me, and he doesn't remember proposing to me, or you guys I think?" I think? How could she not know if he remembered us or not, and wait, did she just say proposed? I was so confused right now I handed the phone to Jc, I was relieved that he was alive but in a way I wanted her to myself, I know it sounds mean but it's the truth, I have had a crazy crush on her since he brought over to introduce her to all of us, after their first couple of fights, I really wanted to ask her out but I couldn't get myself to do it, I was way too shy, I was now in my room, I put my head between my knees as I began to sob. I didn't know what to do, I needed to see her, as soon as that thought pops into my head I race bac down stairs wiping away the tears on my chin. "Jc wait, wait, I need to talk to her." He looked confused and handed me the phone, "where are you? I need to see you, I can fly in whenever you need me to, or I can drive. Just please I need to talk to you." I think I sounded more desperate than intended because I was getting weird looks form everyone, "whoa, calm, I just got a message back from Ricky to say that it is safe from his ex-girlfriend to go back," I definitely creeped her out, I didn't mean to I just really need to talk to her, "ex-girlfriend?" I asked, my heart sank hearing those words because now it means that she can a chance with yet another guy before me, "yeah, it's complicated anyways, I think it would be easier to drive, I will text you the address and you can come now if you really want to?" I got so happy that I hung up before saying goodbye to grab my things, only Trevor had a car and he didn't live with us, I had my licence so I grabbed his keys off of the table near the door and with my jacket, wallet and spare clothes, I was out of there. Trevor came running after me and stopped me in my tracks, "dude! That car is mine! You can't just take it whenever you feel like it! Geez just ask," he sounded pretty angry but I didn't care, I needed to get to LA, "sorry man, I really need it, I need to see her, I will hate myself forever if I don't. I think she already has another guy, I can't let that happen, I need her." Trevor was the first person I ever told about Zoe, because no one else would understand, especially not Connor, "wait what? You like her, she has Connor, you can't so this to him, and I know her, she definitely does not already have another guy, but ok. I will go with you, anyway, if I don't I will tell everyone about Zoe," he had a smirk on his face, I didn't need everyone knowing, but I did need a wingman, so I decided to let him, "fine but as long as you promise not to tell anyone ever! Promise, dude, I mean it you can't. Got it?" he nodded his head and walked over to the passenger side to get in, I got in as well and put my seat belt on before reversing out of the driveway, I was so lost in my thoughts, do I really love her? Was Andrea a waste of time, when I could have been making progress with Zoe? Who is this other dude? I was about to find out in a couple of hours.

*Zoe*

What have I done? I am creating a hole, I love Connor, I have feelings for Ricky and now Kian? What is happening, just because Connor doesn't remember me doesn't mean I can just try and get with any guy who looks at me, does it? I knew that in a couple of hours Kian will show up and Ricky had just invited me to stay instead of going to a hotel, I thought about this all the way home and now I wish I wasn't so socially award so I would have more friends, that are girls. I actually don't have any to talk to, my parents moved to England when I was fifteen and I didn't want to move so I just started living by myself and then after a few years of school I moved again, and started going to music festivals. This is where I met Connor, my thoughts stopped as I pulled up in front of Ricky's house, I got out and started walking to the door. When I was about to knock I heard a car horn, and headlights on me. I quickly turned around to see Trevor's car, I didn't end up knocking and walked over to the car, Trevor got out the passenger side so I went there to greet him first, I gave him a tight hug and I felt a tear drop on my shoulder and when I looked up I saw him crying which made me teary, "really? Your gonna make me cry," I said with a giggle, Kian hadn't gotten out yet, I wonder why, I let go of Trevor and kept my hands around him, "missed you too," he said looking over at the car, "umm, one thing, he is a little shy and sensitive, when he tells you something please don't react like it's a big deal, thanks" he whispered, I was a little confused but agreed. I walked over to where Kian was sitting and opened the door to find him with puffy red eyes and lots of tears on his face, I leaned over him to unbuckle his seatbelt and pulled him out of the car, he latched onto me like there was no tomorrow, I wasn't expecting that and what did Trev mean when he said, 'when' he tells me something, what did Kian need to tell me? Oh well I thought I put my arms around him and after the hug went for an awkward amount of time I pulled away, "hey?" I said, I was a bit surprized with what had just happened, he looked me in the eye, "hey Zoe, how are you?" he tried to hug me again but I put my hand on his chest to stop him, "what are you doing, let's just go inside and I will introduce you to Ricky," I didn't answer his question but it was getting way to awkward out here even Trevor walked away from us, we went to the door and knocked, Ricky opened it and he glared at Kian because he was standing really close to me, he walked in first with me following then Trevor. "so, Zoe. Who are these people?" I don't know why but he sounded annoyed, it wasn't like we were a thing but I could tell that both Kian and Ricky were getting angry, "well, this is Kian Lawley and Trevor Moran, my best friends and Connors best friends from California, there are two more but they didn't come?" I put that as a question because I wanted to know why they didn't, I looked at Trevor and he just looked down and I noticed Kian staring directly at me, none of them answered, "oh ok, why are they here? Do they know about Connor?" Ricky was getting so protective of me, is it because he liked me or something else "yeah we do, and now Zoe can we please talk to you? In private?" as soon as he said that he shot Ricky a look that wasn't very nice, his face was going red. I can tell when Kian gets angry and his face goes red so he is angry, "Kian, what is going on? Ricky can we use your bedroom to talk. It has a lock," I said and before any of them answered I grabbed Kian's arm "thanks." I didn't even care if he wanted me to or not, Ricky shot Trevor a look and he jumped up and caught up to us, "so that nutjob is your boyfriend?" Trevor asked, where did he get that from, I didn't even tell him and we aren't, "no, how? Who? Never mind, I have Connor." I replied hiding my feelings from them. I didn't really have Connor though, I knew that, they knew that, I don't even know why I bothered hiding it from them, "right," he said sarcastically. We got into Ricky's room and I locked the door as Kian sat on his bed, Trevor went into the bathroom. I sat facing Kian "what's up?" I needed to know, this was weird, he hasn't done anything like this before when I was with Connor. "ok, well. Andrea, she was a mistake," I wondered why he was telling me this, I have always been there for him and he has always been there for me but we have never spoken about relationship problems, "why? I thought you guys were good together," I was so confused at the moment, what wasn't he telling me?