"Are you feeling okay?"
"Yeah. Why do you...ask?"
"You seem pretty out of it."
"No, I'm fine Jack." I lied. I ended up throwing up right onto Jack's feet. He screeched and shoved me over, not helping with my head ache. It's not my fault.
I was stressed. Why? Because I just realized my parents aren't right for each other...
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"Rise and Shine! Good morning Cupid!"
I closed my eyes tighter. Yeah, I was awake, but I just wanted to sleep more. My body was killing me.
"Open those eyes up, Cupid. I got some breakfast for you."
I opened my eyes, realizing neither my parents nor Jack were talking to me. It was Eli. He set down a tray of food next to my bed and opened the curtains. He was acting...motherly. "What're you doing here?" I asked. "Where are my parents?"
"Well they stayed up all night watching you. Jack had to go to school. I told them I'd gladly watch after you!" Oh my God. He's so freaking gay. How did I not see it? Well-groomed and really giddy. Yeah, that's stereotyping, but still. I sat up and grabbed some bacon.
He sat at the end of my bed and looked at my face. "You look so much like your father," he told me.
I shrugged. "I guess. People tell me I look more like my mom."
He nodded and looked out the window. "Maybe I just know what your dad looks like so well I can tell."
"What?" I asked. Dad said they had met briefly.
"Oh your dad and I go way back," he told me.
"You didn't go to the same school, though."
"No. My dad asked his dad if he could kind of befriend me. For a while I was home-schooled and I was kind of sick so I never went out much. Though his dad sent him over and we just hung out at my house."
"Did he actually like you?" I didn't mean to ask it. My dad was nice, kind of, and I can't picture him being a dick to Eli.
Eli laughed. "Yes, I believe he liked me. Otherwise he was just using me."
I cringed. There was something about the relationship he had with me dad that I didn't like.
"Cupid," he said seriously, looking at me. "I know a lot has gone on, but you just need to calm down. Darcy is gone. You don't need to worry about Oak or Holly. You don't have to worry about me either."
"You're gay."
"Yes."
"But you weren't there at the club."
"No. I was there the next night and I had been multiple times, which is how I heard all these people talk about a guy named Cee. Everyone use to call your dad Cee, and so I was intrigued. Eventually, through a series of gossip, I learned it was you."
"You just wanted me to know."
"Yep."
"Why?"
"Because I know you're probably confused. How in the hell are you suppose to have a kid with Jack without a defect and blah blah blah."
I nodded. "Yeah," I mumbled.
"So, tell me the whole story," he said cheerily, sitting Indian-style on the bed in front of me. Weird.
I sighed. "Well, I use to be friends with Jack, but then I turned into a jerk, and I treated him like a jerk. Over a few months, I remembered why I was friends with him in the first place. Though then I wanted to be more than friends with him, and we eventually got together. I then realized that we might be in love, we shouldn't be. I have to have a child, and so does he. An heir, to take over. I can get a woman pregnant, but the child will have a defect since we're not in love. I could still have a child and be with Jack, but I know I would blame Jack and just go freaking crazy. I can't..." I shook my head. Just thinking about it was confusing. "I'd be miserable in any situation. I can be with Jack and have a kid, I'd be miserable. I can not be with Jack and not have a child, and I'd be miserable. I can go into a sham marriage and have a kid and I would still be freaking miserable. If I were with Jack and didn't have a child I'd be somewhat happier. That's what I'd want to do, because I'd have Jack and I could be Cupid forever until I die. It's just when I die I won't have an heir. Now I'm just trying to figure it all out."
