Destination: Permanent Vacation

12: Oikawa - Saturday

So we're all in here to gossip like teenage girls? Sounds fun.

I'm curled up against Kou-chan's side as the noise level rises again. I don't like noise like this when I'm so vulnerable and can't even protest against it.

"Alright, calm down, calm down. Atsumu, you first," My cuddle buddy says.

"Osamu and Suna," Atsumu says with a smirk towards his brother's best friend.

"I'm going to kill you!" Suna says.

"But you like him!" Atsumu protests.

"Says who?"

"The way you two look at each other,"

"Suna, come on, he has a point," Kou-chan interjects.

"Just for that, I'm attacking your precious babies," Suna responds. What? "Yamaguchi and Tsukishima-" Fairs. "-And Chibi-chan and the King?"

"What?" Chibi squeaks out, making me sit up to cover my ears.

"T-Too loud, Chibi," I tell him.

"Sorry, but... Me... and Kageyama?" He says.

"Shoyito, Solo admítelo. Estás enamorado de él. Deja de mentirte a ti mismo," I tell him. He blushes.

"What are the chances he likes me?"

"He likes you!" Pretty much every person says at the same time.

"Since when?" Chibi asks, seeming genuinely surprised.

"Beginning of high school," Suga tells him. He just sits there in silence, probably talking with himself in his head.

"Wow... uhm... Well, what about you an Iwaizumi-san?" He asks me

"He broke up with his girlfriend this morning, I'm waiting on that one," I answer coldly, slightly irritated that he keeps making me talk.

"Oh really?" Kenma interjects. "Forget all about our little discussion last night?"

"Suck Kuroo's dick," I say as I flip them off.

"Gladly, if you get to your little boyfriend's first,"

"Settle down!" Yaku says. From what I've heard and from Kenma's reaction, it's probably best to shut up before I meet demon senpai. "Kenma, apologise,"

"Sorry," The blond mumbles. "I should've been more considerate because of what happened earlier,"

"Yeah, what did happen earlier?" Yaku asks. "Or are you just being a Mr Whinypants again?"

"I had a trauma attack," I answer, deadpan. Yaku's teasing smirk falls and is replaced with a look of shock and guilt. "I get them from time to time because of my post traumatic stress disorder."

"Fuck, I-" Yaku rushes to apologise but I wave him off.

"It's fine. I'm used to be teased, I tease people too. I don't blame you. You couldn't have known and you were upstairs when it happened. It's fine, really," I tell him. "As for why it happened..." I take a deep breath and sigh. "When I was in middle school, I made a friend from another school. He was nice and helped me with volleyball. I had a teensy bit of a crush on him and when he asked me to meet up with him in the changing room in my penultimate year of middle school, I thought that he was going to ask me to be his boyfriend. He did and he kissed me, without asking and a bit more forceful than I'd like. He was in his last year of middle school and said that he was going to Shiratorizawa next year and that he wanted me to go as well so I'd be with him and he could do even more. I thought nothing of it until our penultimate game of the year and he pulled me into a changing room. When he kissed me he started getting really really touchy and I asked him to stop... several times... I asked him again and again and again until I had to grab his hands by the wrists and hold him away. Then a kid in the year below me from a different school walked in and started yelling at him for me. He ran out but every time I bumped into him again at games he'd say something toxic. Trying to convince me I dreamt it, telling me he didn't remember, then threatening to do it again, blaming me for my friends no longer trusting him and the rumours that spread about what he'd done. Every time I saw him, he'd tell me that I should go to Shiratorizawa and be with him, then that I should've gone to Shiratorizawa. That's why I start crying every time Ushiwaka tells me that I should've gone to Shiratorizawa. It's also how I met Atsumu. He was the kid who walked in. He's also the only thing that helps me when I wonder if I did just dream it. There was someone there who saw it, who can tell me that it was real. But I still didn't press charges, like a coward. So, yeah, that's what happened,"

The room is silent. Nobody's saying anything at all.

Did I say something wro-

"Oikawa?" I look up at the red-head who calls my name. "Can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Sure?" I say, unsure.

"Outside,"

I detach myself from Sugawara and stand up following Tendou out into the hall.

"What do you need to talk about?" I ask him.

"Who was it?"