*Ara's POV*
"When were you gonna tell me you already decided?" Ty broke the silence with a question directed at Nate.
"I haven't, mom's just paranoid." Nate responded.
"Bullshit." Ty retorted.
"And how do you know?"
"Because you're my brother. I just know."
"Look; for me there is no other choice, I'm either gonna die cause of a bounty, or because I'm a part of this family or because I was 'playing mafioso'. In the end I'm still dead, so why not do it?" Nate explained.
"Because it's dangerous, because it might not be what you want, and because you might regret it."
"Because you and mom are such experts on what I want. If you're gonna talk me out of this it's not gonna work."
'What's up with you?"
"I'm just tired of people thinking they know what's best for me or what I need, especially when none of them has ever asked me what I wanted or needed."
"Are you saying that I don't care about you?"
"If the shoe fits, wear it." Nate got up and sat at the bar. Now they're mad at each other, Mariah and I are solemnly mad at each other, mom and aunty Nat are mad at each other and the world just won't stop spinning, not even for a second.
"Ara?" Ty called my name a bit weaker than usual. He and Nate rarely get into a serious argument so it must come as a shock.
"Yeah?" I answered trying not to think about all the ways my life is fucked and my emotions with it.
"You okay?"
"I'm okay as okay gets." I stood up.
"Don't tell me you're upset with me too." Yes, I am conflicted about if I'm upset with you or not but you shouldn't know that.
"I'm not—" I lied through my teeth. "—I'm just thinking."
"About?"
"Why are you giving Nate so much heat about his choice?" Ty sighed.
"Because I chose the same thing."
"Am I the only person who can't wrap my head around this?!"
"Don't get mad. It's just I'm mom's first born son, if there's anybody who has to do it, it's me."
"That's not true, there is a choice."
"If mom were to die right now... Who would you think they'd look at?"
"Dad, aunty Nat, uncle Alex, uncle Ben, there's plenty of people for them to choose from."
"Let's say they pick one of them. Then what? They're still gonna have to train me. There's no running from this for me."
"Then what am I supposed to do?"
"Support me?"
"Funny you say that." I chuckled softly.
"What do you mean?"
"It's just I haven't decided yet... So." I lied. I mean the fact that you don't trust me enough to let me support you and my best friend dating.
"Oh... well, take your time."
"I will." I responded before leaving.
***
*Nate's POV*
"Ask me." Aunty cat sat next to me at the bar.
"Ask you what?" I questioned.
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Troubled Life
RandomClara is girl who was used, abused, and hurt. She doesn't trust any guy she comes across and with good reason. She has nightmares that almost feel too real, and she's always self conscious. If only most people knew that behind that bitchy, fierce, a...
