The small voice in my brain eventually becomes larger with time and if you are anything like me you would know that it tells you to do things that you know you shouldn't do.
At first those thoughts are terrifying and you remember thinking "they're just thoughts and of course I'm not going to listen to them. I have complete control over my body and what I do"
Now you aren't so sure.
"There's no other escape you can think of." It tells you.
"So why not try it."
"You'll regret letting yourself grow up to see your parents and grandparents die, won't you."
"You'll regret letting yourself grow up to see yourself have no job and nowhere to live. You have money but are too afraid to buy anything with it."
"So why not try it."
"It might not even hurt you know?"
"It's better to do it sooner than later."
"Later you might find yourself surrounded by people you love. But now you have no one who will make you feel guilty for going away."
"Now you are safe to give in."
"Not for long though"- the now suffocatingly loud voice tells you.
"You've got to do it soon."
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I Might Set Fire to This Later
Non-FictionThis book is going to be like my journal. It's going to be very personal. Like a walk through my mind. I'm challenging myself to just write with no filter. To get my thoughts out. I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR TRIGGERS. You could say it's a get to...
