Love Me to the End

|08 - Accidental Intimacy|

 Ash POV

A few weeks pass by as quick as a breeze. Though, actually going through the breeze was not quick and was definitely not a breeze.

Sighing, I put my head down on my textbook, unable to comprehend any more letters or numbers. I look over to my right, eyeing an empty desk and a perfectly made bed.

Maybe Iris could help. That girl is too smart for her own good.

She had told me this morning that she had practice, an exam, and then had to help the kids this evening. She didn't tell me when she was coming back though.

Why didn't you ask her before, dumbass?

Rooming with her wasn't...bad, per se. I could at least say that she was much better than the girl from last year; I had almost committed murder.

"Because we're friends, and friends help each other."

Her words echoed in my mind and I smiled a little; a rare occurrence, yet somehow it had been happening lately. I didn't do anything or try; she came to me and she stuck herself into my life and fit in perfectly. As sad as it was, the reason me and the band were friends was simply because of our family's connections. We never had any stories about how we ate ice cream on the playground or accidentally pushed each other over.

Before them, I never had any friends nor did I want to make any. As much as I hated her in the beginning, I was beginning to see why everyone was automatically drawn to her. But, in no way was I ready to go and sidle up next to her; I would never be close to anyone like that other than my family. It'd only hurt her in the end.

Wait, I take that back. I've never been close to anyone like that at all until Black Ice.

Sighing, I randomly flip my phone over and check the time.

Wait, fuck, it's 5.

We had practice with the dancers today. The realization struck me as the needle tipped to five. Surprisingly, this was only the second time we were meeting up since everyone had been too busy these past few days. It just got delayed over and over again before Iris took control of the situation and scheduled one today.

Well, at least I don't have to study anymore.

The closet door slips open as I walk in and scan for what to wear. I see that Iris's side is super tidy while mine looks like a trash can of clothes. She even finally finished decorating her dorm and hung up things like fairy lights and mini canvases with those ridiculous motivational quotes. I gagged hard when I saw them.

Like a needle in a haystack, a pair of black leggings and blue AC/DC shirt catches my eye and I huff in relief. I change quickly and make sure to switch out my bra for a sports one instead.

"Remember you're going to dance today so wear something comfortable!"

I briefly recall her words and decide that this should be fine. I find my phone and keys on my desk and give one more look to the room before I lock the door.

Heading out to the building, I see the dorm receptionist or warden or whatever the hell she likes to be called is not there. Well, I kinda don't even want her there. After what happened that day, do you blame me? I can never even look at her again.

I head to the parking lot and see my car where I left it the night before. Even as I realize I could probably walk to practice, I shake the thoughts away and slide into the driver's seat, opting laziness over practicality.