drowning || bang chan

• ten •

[Warning] Self harm

Pretty quickly, Kat's house filled up with her fellow classmates, everyone was drinking and dancing.

A few people could be found in random corners of the house just making out.

Typical teenage party stuff.

The boys were still worried about Kat, though. To throw a party was incredibly unlike her. They knew something was wrong but the fact that she hadn't even told Changbin about it was really alarming to them.

"Hey, Jeongin!" Chan shouted over the music towards the younger boy.

"Yeah?" he shouted back.

"Have you seen Kat anywhere?" He asked.

He was getting worried about her since the last time he saw her she was doing shots with some classmates in the front room...

"I think she's in the kitchen." Jeongin told Chan while taking a sip of the lemonade he has in his glass.

He didn't really want to drink any alcohol since it was a school night and everything.

After Jeongin told him, Chan immediately made his way to the kitchen to find her. He knew something was wrong and letting her have alcohol while she was feeling like this was not going to be a good idea.

Chan went to the kitchen but there was no sign of Kat in there. However, he did see Hyejin getting herself a drink.

"Hyejin!" he called out to her through the music.

"Chan?" she responded, wondering why he was speaking to her.

"Do you know where Kat is?" he asked, the concerned tone peeping through his voice.

Hyejin noticed this and immediately got worried too, since she was quite close with Kat and she knew a fair bit about her mental situation.

"No, sorry." She answered his question worriedly. "Have you checked her room though? She may be hiding out up there." She suggested.

"Ah okay, no worries, thanks for the help!" he shouted as he began walking away.

He instantly went to Kat's room in an effort to find her, but when he finally did his heart shattered for her.

She was sat on her bed, mascara running down her face which was drenched with tears. Her dress was ridden up revealing her thighs where the fresh blood was dripping out from, a blade in her hand.

"Kat!-" he shouted as he opened the door and cut himself off when he saw the sight.

"Chan?" she looked up surprised.

He could tell she was drunk and not with it at all. What the hell was she doing just now?

"Kat... what have you done?" he said in disbelief, he couldn't believe that she's been doing this to herself.

"Channie, hey." She slurred as she stood up to approach him and instantly fell back down due to the alcohol having that much of an influence over her.

"Woah, woah, woah." he instantly shut the door and ran to her side.

"Chan." she said sternly and grabbed his face. "You look pretty."

"What? You don't know what you're saying." he told her, slightly flustered and removing her hands from his face while she pouted at his response.

'Kat, what's this?" Chan asked her and gestured towards the cuts on her legs.

"Shhhh, Chan. It's a secret." she told him getting progressively closer to his face.

He could smell the alcohol on her. Just how much had she had to drink for her to be acting this way?