drowning || bang chan

• nineteen •

I opened my eyes to the bright light coming in through the living room window. Feeling pain from sleeping in such an uncomfortable place, I sat up and stretched only to see Chan asleep on the other end of the sofa.

I plant a light kiss on his head and then check my phone, of course I had woken up before my alarm. How annoying. I had a text from Bin though.

Dwaekki 🐰🐷

we all went home last night btw
chan didnt wanna leave u alone tho

I looked over at my peacefully sleeping boyfriend and smiled, some of my anxiety being lifted, realising he really does care.

I decided to get ready early before having to wake Chan up so I went and jumped in the shower quickly.

As I left the shower in only my towel, I went to my bedroom to find my uniform. Just as I was about to start getting changed, I heard the door creak open behind me.

I whipped my head around to see Chan, looking a little a red.

"Shit, Kat, I'm sorry, I didn't realise you were changing!" he exclaimed, turning around quickly.

"Relax, Chris, it's not like you saw me naked or anything." I giggled at his reaction, it was adorable.

"No but you could have been!" he protested, even though he was facing away, I could see the tips of his ears being bright red.

"You know it wouldn't really have mattered anyway." I smirked, "Do you think you're never going to see me naked or something?" I added.

"Well- no- I would love to- I mean yeah I know- but... God, Kat, you don't even know what you do to me." he sighed, turning around, looking embarrassed.

I just laughed at him, I have never seen this side of him and I love it, he is so fun to tease.

"I think someone needs a cold shower." I joked.

"I think you're right." he chuckled, as he turned to the bathroom.

As funny as that was, I probably would have died from embarrassment if he had actually seen me naked.

***

School was a pretty average day, I had no words from Soomin all day, thank god.

I told Hyejin all about what happened this morning, because I could not get it out of my head.

"Girl! He is so whipped." She pointed out. "You should've accidentally dropped the towel." she laughed, clearly picturing the scenario play out in her head.

"Hyejin! That would not have been funny!" I groaned, "We are meant to be taking things slow, I don't think the man needs to see me naked a week into the relationship." I retorted.

"Hmm, no fun." she said, and took a bite of her sandwich.

I chuckled at her silly comments, and started to eat my own lunch.

***

I went home on my own today to try and do some homework without any distractions. However, I was greeted by quite the sight when I walked into the front room...

"Dad? What the fuck?" My voice shaking.

My dad was on the sofa, completely passed out. I looked next to him and there was a bottle of empty rum on the floor.

I ran over to him and checked his pulse, just to make sure he was okay. Upon feeling his pulse, slow but there, clearly where he was fast asleep, I started shaking him awake, holding back the tears that were threatening to fall.

He slowly opened his eyes, looking around confused.

"Kat, heyyy I forgot to tell you I was coming home early!" he cheered with slurred speech.

I held up the empty rum bottle to him with no emotion on my face, really in disbelief that he had broken his sobriety.

"Oh, you found that, my bad!" he slurred, while laughing at himself.

"Dad, in what world is this okay? Why are you laughing? Stop laughing." I begged, not finding it amusing at all.

"I saw your mother." he carried on laughing. That would explain this then.

I knew he would forever be messed up by what she did to us, he was nothing but good to her for their whole relationship and an amazing dad to me but the chances of him seeing her in a whole country were so low, why did it have to happen now?

"She was with that man, the same one you know," he explained, I was barely able to understand him because of how drunk he was, "she had another kid too, looked like he was getting spoilt." my dad finished explaining why he felt the need to drink a whole bottle of alcohol.

Another kid?

I have a brother out there...?

"Are you shitting me? That doesn't matter Dad! We started over here, we were so happy without her!" The tears were already falling at this point but I couldn't help it.

I was saying one thing to him, even though what she did has always and will always affect me too. I felt like a hypocrite but that didn't matter because he should not have broken his sobriety over it.

"I'm sorry Katerina, I didn't think you would have been home yet." he said, the amusement had now left him once he saw me start crying.

"I'm going out." I said, completely monotone.

I turned around and left the house. I don't know where I was going, I just needed to get out before I went into full panic mode, I just kept walking until I found a random bench to sit at. I pulled my knees to my chest and put my head in my knees, finally letting the tears flow to their full extent.

My phone started vibrating so I pulled it out to check the caller ID.

Dad.

I declined and turned my phone off.

***

A/N

surpriseeeeeeee

this was a bit deep there will be a happy ending for all dont u worry

also there may be a plot twist kinda