drowning || bang chan

• twenty two •

"You're glowing today." Changbin pointed out to me.

"I am?" I shrug off, not telling him the details of the night prior, walking into the dance classroom.

"You've got the glow." he smirked, of course he would know. I rolled my eyes at him.

"Fine. I do." I admitted, telling him without having to say the words.

"Holy shit, Rina. So much for taking it slow." he remarked, giving me a look.

"I decided to screw that, literally." I chuckled at my own wording, "He's shown me I can trust him, and I do trust him." I explained.

"Good, I trust him too." Changbin confirmed, reassuring me, because he knows if he trusts as well, I'm much more likely to be comfortable.

"Anyway... was it good?" he nudged my arm with his elbow, and I looked down in embarrassment.

"Probably the best I've had." I responded still looking away from him, my face probably becoming red from remembering the memories.

Changbin just laughed, knowing I hated talking about this stuff, despite how close we are.

Despite what happened with my dad yesterday, I was honestly in one of the best moods I had been in for a long time.

Chan came into the room, and walked over to me, slinging his arm across my shoulders and planting a kiss on the side of my head. Changbin has clearly decided he wanted to be a weirdo today as he started wiggling his eyebrows at the both of us, causing me to give him a slap on the arm, to which he fake cried over, causing Chan to just laugh at us.

***

"He told you what!?" Hyejin whisper shouted to me, quiet enough for the teacher not to hear us talking.

"Yup." I responded, smiling at her.

"God, I'm so jealous of you guys, you're so perfect together." she whined.

I just chuckled at her whining. However, immediately stopped when I saw a shadow over my desk and looked up to see the teacher stood staring at us.

"Katerina and Hyejin, it's bad enough you didn't do the homework, can you at least pay attention to the lesson." he said, massaging the bridge of his nose.

"Sorry." we said in unison, turning our attention back to our classwork.

***

As the school day came to an end, I left the last class of the day and went to find Chan so I could go back to his house and collect the stuff I left there from the previous night.

I couldn't find him and the boys said they thought they saw him go into the dance room. So I went there to look for him.

However what I walked into absolutely shattered my world.

Lee Soomin, her lips on Chan's.

I dropped the book I was holding and just ran. I didn't even know where I was going, but the tears were flowing and there was no controlling it. What the fuck was going on.

Why was this happening to me? After everything.

Everything he knows.

With fucking Soomin? The dumb bitch.

I ran until I wound up on the same bench as yesterday, how ironic.

I was trying to rack my brain for any excuse as to what I saw but I was drawing blanks. After I gave myself to him and showed that I trusted him wholeheartedly, after I let myself fall for him after pushing it back for so long.

Before I knew it, I felt like I couldn't breathe, I felt like I was drowning. In all of my feelings, in my tears and in the pure heartbreak I was feeling.

Bang Chan was drowning me.

I was panicking and on my knees on the floor, choking and trying to breathe but nothing was working until I felt a set of hands on my cheeks and a familiar face in front of me.

"Bin..." I croaked out.

"Katerina, breathe, please... I'm begging you." tears filling his eyes as he whispered the simple words.

I coughed, finally catching my breath and falling into him.

"Bin... he- I- I can't believe it." I sobbed into his shoulder.

"Shhh, it's okay, you need to tell me what happened." he soothed, rubbing my back, letting me cry it out.

"Chan..." I breathed, "I saw him and Soomin."

It was like Changbin saw red for a moment. I didn't need to explain fully as I'm pretty sure he had gotten the message. 

"Fuck." he cursed quietly to himself. "You're staying at my house tonight, Rina." he told me. Not giving me a choice in the matter so I just nodded, and once I felt stable enough to walk, we made our way to his house.

***

Changbin looked heartbroken for me. I felt so bad that he had to deal with my shit yet again. However, I am so grateful for him, god knows what would have happened if he didn't know where I had gone, and god know what I would do if I had to be on my own tonight.

Changbin kept muttering about "he better watch himself" and "he's gonna get it" to himself, I can only assume he's talking about Chan. I didn't really care though, I just wanted to forget the past few weeks, this might even be worse than what happened when I was younger.

[A/N]

SORRY this one is a tad shorter than normal bc i just needed to get the plot point across but I need the next plot point to be next chapter bc i cannot write like a 3k chapter 😭