Uncle Sebastian

21

I gently stroke Lilian's hair as she sleeps, the movie slowly finishing, showing the credits. As I watch the credits roll, my attention slowly changes to Lilian's fingers. They slowly twitch. It makes me chuckle slightly.

Something that makes me happy was the fact that she felt brave enough to tell Scarlett everything. Obviously Scarlett didn't tell me anything about what was said, but she said that she told her everything.

I don't want to force anything out of Lily, she'll tell me if she wants. However I'm so excited for her birthday which is in two days.

Wait...

No!

It's 12:40am

Tomorrow.

Nobody has a better present that Scarlett, no matter what anyone says. I approve of the present and nobody else knows what it is.

"Papa..." she quietly mutters. As the words slip from her mouth, my heart shatters. My stomach spins.

No!

Seb don't cry!

When I lost Charlie, I lost a part of myself. We were basically brothers. Sometimes I feel as though it's my fault he died as they were coming to visit me...

"Come on darling" I groan as I slowly move her off my knee, picking her up and cradle her in my arms. "You're not 5 anymore" I chuckle.

"No I'm almost 17" she groans "I can walk, put me down" she chuckles. As she opens her eyes, the light makes her close them instantly. I laugh. "Go on get to bed, I'll see you in the morning. I'll send Pads up tomorrow if you're still not awake, Mkay?" I ask quickly tidying up the living room.

"Mhm" she nods rubbing her eyes. "G'night" she yawn. "Goodnight sweetie" I respond, folding the blanket. She walks away into the hallway and I hear a small "ow... that's a wall" I begin to laugh. "Yes there are many walls!" I respond. She groans in annoyance before I hear the door close.

Sighing, I make my way to my room, but I stop outside Lilian's room. I put my ear to the door and listen. "Yeah, I was just about to go to sleep. What no you don't need to go. Padddddyyyyy! Okay. I love you too. Goodnight, see you in the morning" she chuckles. I smile to myself.

Her and Paddy are really happy. So I leave the hallway and go straight to bed.

The next morning:

I check the time as I stretch. 6:30am. We start filming at 9. I groan as I get out of bed. However, I try and be quiet as I don't want to wake Lily up by being an elephant.

Did you laugh?

No?

Okay...

Anyways:

I quickly get dressed into something casual so I'm not overdressed for filming. Then I brush my teeth, comb back my hair. I look at myself in the mirror and see the hand marked bruise that clenches around my throat.

That night still pains me. I wonder what would've happened if I followed my gut, ignored Lilian, and told Faith not to come to LA?

Sebastian stop it!

Don't beat yourself up about not knowing!!

I doubt anyone knew!

Okay... whatever.

I quickly check the time again, 6:47am. Okay the cast will be downstairs. I gotta get down for some breakfast before Hemsy eats it all.

Yes. I just eye rolled.