It started with a Raid War / Quackity x Reader Fanfic

chapter twenty-seven

Alex has feelings. Alex has feelings and they're for me. How did this happen? A couple hours ago I was stressed that he wasn't coming home, and now we're making out in our kitchen.

A couple of hours ago I was worried that I had lost a friend. A couple hours ago I kissed Nick.

Shit. What am I supposed to do?

Alex smiles. "I'll see you on my stream later?"

"Uh, I was actually going to tell you, it's only going to be you and Nick. I don't feel very good, so I'm going to head to bed after Nick's stream."

Was that a lie? Kind of. I definitely don't feel good. I feel ecstatic. My bones are filled with adrenaline inside of me. I could run a marathon and not feel a single thing.

But at the same time, I feel a sense of guilt. I just need to think things over.

"That's fine." He says. "Goodnight then, y/n."

My stomach jumps. "Goodnight, Alex."

The rest of the stream I stay quiet. I keep reliving the kiss in the kitchen in my head. I'm constantly stuck between. 'That can never happen again.' and 'When can that happen again?'

I didn't think I have feelings for Alex. I shouldn't have feelings about Alex, but maybe I do.

I think of all the times I've crawled to him for comfort or when I'm bored. He feels like home.

Would a relationship ruin that home?

"You okay? Earth to y/n." I hear Nick say.

"What?"

"Do you have anything you want to say to the stream? We're ending."

"Oh, um, goodbye guys! Have an amazing night or day or whatever it is for you! BYEEE"

"BYEE" Nick repeats until he clicks the end stream button. "Are you okay? You zoned out for a while."

"I'm fine. Just tired. I think I'm going to head to bed."

"Okay, goodnight."

"Night."

Nick heads towards Alex's room for the next stream. He turns around. "Hey, y/n?"

I look up. Does he know? "Yeah?"

Nick smiles. "I had fun today."

I return the smile. "I had fun, too. Thanks for cheering me up."

"Anytime." Then he leaves me and my confused feelings alone in my room.

Okay so I definitely like Alex. And I definitely kinda like Nick.

This is a problem.

Nick has been straight up with his feelings when he told them to me. He's sweet and gentle and kind. He makes me feel safe and taken care of.

But Alex. Alex showed me his feelings. He showed me his passion. Alex knows I can handle myself. He knows I can do anything I want, and he can't control it. He makes me feel like I'm on fire. He makes me feel like home. He makes me feel such a combined mixture of tossed up, confusing feelings.

But I like both. The simplicity and the complexity. All of it.

Do I have to tell them until I've come up with an answer?

I decided that I want to hear Alex tell me his feelings. Nick was able to say his feelings.

Although Alex made me feel his. I just want some clarity through his words.

I can hear someone taking a shower. I'm assuming that means their stream is over.

I pray that it's Nick in the shower and go to their room. Luckily, there sits Alex Quackity editing in all his glory.

He notices me standing in the doorway and smiles. "Hey."

"Hey," I stand there awkwardly. What do I say? "Can I talk to you? In my room." I glance in the direction of the bathroom. Meaning I don't want Nick to walk in.

"Okay.."

He follows me to my room. He sits in my swivel chair as I lean on the bed.

"I want to hear you say it."

"Say what?" He asks,

"Don't act innocent. You know what."

"I really don't." He shrugs.

I take a deep breath. I can't believe I'm about to do this. I hope I'm not wrong that he has feelings for me. That would make me feel very stupid. "You... you kissed me."

"I'm aware. I was there, too." He smiles.

"That's not the point. You kissed me. Usually when people kiss other people, that means that they have feelings. And if you have feelings, then I would kinda like to hear you say it. Because I'm wasting a lot of extra thinking over this whole situation if you don't."

"y/n." he looks at me, "I have undeniable feelings for you. I thought it was just a small crush, but it turned into more when we met in real life." He takes a deep breath. "I was going to ask this after we got back from Karl's, but apparently you can't wait two days."

I laugh a little. I guess I am a little impatient.

"Will you go out on a date with me?" he asks.

I gasp a little. I was not expecting that.

"Maybe."

"Maybe? You demand to know if I have feelings, then say maybe? What the hell, y/n." He throws his hands up and then into his lap in defeat.

"We were friends first. Now we're more than friends. It's very confusing. One wrong thing and we could destroy our friendship." And I can't lose you like that.

"Okay, you have a point. But you know we'd be good together. You can tell from that kiss that we'd be fucking amazing."

I sigh. "Maybe."

"Whatever you say. Just let me know your answer. Can I go now?" He points to the door.

"Yeah, yeah sorry."

"I'm going to assume I won't be getting a goodnight kiss?"

I roll my eyes. "Could you settle for a hug?"

"Better than nothing."

He pulls me into a deep hug. I take in his scent. He smells so good, so familiar. He smells like my safe place.

And I can't mess up my safespace.

Or can I?

word count: 937

 authors note:

 hope you guys are enjoying this so far :)

 i'm starting a dream x reader story as well and it's going to be posted right after 'it started with a raid war is completed (which everything is already prewritten and done btw)

anyways it's going to be a cute, short fanfic.. and then i have a big book project that i'm super excited for 

so stay tuned.. daily posts

have a great day :))