Fell in love with a psychopath (2)✔️

Chapter 3. Journey

I was driving. Sideswipe had been driving for 12 hours straight and needed a nap. It's not my first time driving in a Autobot but Sunstreaker never let me drive his alt-mode. The night had settled in already and there wasn't much traffic. It gave me the opportunity to think. Is this a good idea or not? Probably not. It means I have to face Lennox and Prime. I haven't seen them for over a year and I left without saying anything to them. Especially at the beginning Jazz passed by quite often to check up on me but when they were on a mission, I left.

I looked at Sideswipe. He looked so depressed and miserable. I knew he was trying to stay strong but deep down, his spark was crying. It was the main reason I decided to come with him and support him where I could. As much as I missed Sunny, Sideswipe missed his twin brother too. All I hope is that they will welcome him with open arms and that the humans won't see him as a Sunstreaker 2.0 but I am quite sure that after what happened with Sunstreaker that the humans don't like seeing his twin wandering around. Despite the strong difference in behavior.

Around 5 AM, I pulled up in a gas station and cut off the engine. Sideswipe woke up. "Why did we stop? Are we there?" he mumbled and blinked. "No, I needed a short break," I replied, removing the seatbelt. "Oh, can you take a snack for me too?" he asked with closed eyes. "Does it matter what?" I asked. "No..." he fell back asleep. I hopped out and bought us some food. I didn't want to wake him up, so I started eating and saved his food for later. I noticed how low his Energon levels were. That's not good. To prevent anything bad to happen on the highway, I refueled him with gasoline before I hit the road again.

Sideswipe woke up at 10 AM. "Morning." I flashed him a smile, which he returned. "Ah, you got me some food," he chirped and unwrapped the sandwich. "You refueled me?" he asked. "Hope you don't mind. Your Energon levels are very low," I said. Sideswipe shrugged and started eating like he hadn't eaten for years. "Did Prime kill him?" His question came out of the blue. "No, Ironhide shot him in the medbay... that's what I heard from Jazz."

Sideswipe started talking in Cybertronian and I didn't need to understand to know it wasn't positive. "I need a boost... can we stop at Starbucks?" he asked. I smiled and gave a small nod. I parked and Sideswipe hopped out, getting his coffee. He came back with the biggest cup of coffee I had ever seen. "Seriously, I love those humans. They misspelled my name though." I frowned, "how is that possible to misspell your name?" I asked. He turned the cup to show me.

"Apprently, I am Zidezwipe."

I laughed and rubbed my forehead. "You obviously pronounce a 's'... some people." Sideswipe shrugged and started driving off. "What kind of coffee do you have?" I asked. "Uhm, this is the Coffee Frappuccino Blended. Good stuff. You want a taste?" he asked. "No, it's yours. I don't drink coffee," I replied and hit the road again. "You miss something in life," he teased and nudged my side. "Sideswipe!" I cursed, swerving over the road. "you are horrible." Sideswipe smirked and took another sip. Now he was waking up, he started talking endlessly about everything that crossed his mind.

"Could we make a stop?" he asked. I glanced at him, "want more coffee?" I asked. "No, I thought maybe you can get yourself a snack, you haven't eaten since five O'clock and I want to use the bathroom," he said. "Alright... Zidezwipe." Sideswipe laughed and nudged my side again. "Oh, you love teasing, isn't it?" he chuckled. I smiled. "We switch seats too. You have driven enough," he added. "Alright." We came to a stop at the gas station and as I bought something, a yellow Lamborghini was parked not too far. I walked up to the car, "Sunstreaker..." it was a little habit. I needed to check if it wasn't him. Despite he's dead, I had to check it. I took a deep breath and turned away, walking over to the corvette where Sideswipe was waiting. "You're okay?" he asked. I nodded and smiled, "yeah, let's go. I have some food for you too."

I hopped in and buckled up. Sideswipe slowly sat down as well and watched me cautiously. "A muffin." he hummed and took it from me. "Thank you." I hummed and buckled up. Sideswipe didn't talk to me like he had done previously. "I think we should be in Washington DC tomorrow around 8 O'clock." I nodded and looked out of the window. Sideswipe laid his hand on mine.

The next morning, we arrived at the base. I hopped out and watched Sideswipe transform. My eyes scanned the room. Somewhere deep down, I hoped to see Sunstreaker just walk in. That it was all a trick to take him away from me again. "You're okay?" I nodded and smiled. "Yeah, come on, this way." Sideswipe wheeled after me towards the main hanger. Like I hoped, the other Autobots welcomed him with open arms and I waited at the side line. Humans were skittish. Sideswipe's holoform tried to introduce himself to some soldiers, but they walked off. "Don't take it personal, Sideswipe. They will come around."

Sideswipe turned. "You killed my brother." A silence fell. "She told me." he pointed at me. "Skylar..." Optimus walked up to me. "You changed," he said. "Changed?" I asked. "You look bad." Ratchet said. I rolled my eyes. "I feel fine and I actually doing quite good for someone who lost someone important," I snapped and walked off. "Skylar." Sideswipe sprinted after me and blocked my way. "Don't leave. Please," he mumbled. I turned around again, "We met in San Diego and she decided to travel together. She won't stay, she only wanted to drop me off," Sideswipe said. I nodded in agreement and walked off.

((Sideswipe's P.O.V))
I watched Skylar walk off. "Thank you for brining her back." I looked at Optimus again. When I found Skylar, I had contact with Optimus but he hadn't told me about my brother yet. "How is she doing?" he asked. "well, I think that's obvious," I muttered, glancing at Ratchet. "From what I saw on the photo's, she lost a lot of weight, she lost her spirit, her joy of life and ended up in a state of depression. The last few days, I took note of how sad she is about Sunstreaker. She carries his knife, has his perfume, his shirts, photo's and walks up to yellow Lamborghini's to check if it's not him. She has hope, even she deep down knows he's gone."

"I will have a chat with her and see if she wants to talk," Jazz said and walked off. "She doesn't want to get close to me either. She knows I am going to die and she doesn't want to go through the entire process again. It's really hard for her to be here and face everyone. I am sure she'll come around eventually, maybe give her some time and space," I said. Optimus sighed and gave a small nod. "what about you?" I shrugged. "Grief... intense sadness but I don't want to show Skylar that. I will reunite with him soon. If you had just waited... things would be different."