Fell in love with a psychopath (2)✔️

Chapter 2. A decision

I woke up with the smell of food. I slid out of bed, tied my hair in a messy not and walked towards the kitchen. "I made you some breakfast. I thought you maybe would be hungry." Sideswipe gestured to me to sit down. "Thank you. How do you feel?" He asked. "How do I feel... fine I guess," I mumbled. Sideswipe sat down as well and started to eat in silence. "What happened to your arm?" He pointed at the bloody bondages. I looked at it, rubbing over it. "I was sad..."

Sideswipe's face dropped. "You did that to yourself?" He asked. "I miss him..." I looked down at my plate. "Hey, don't cry, don't cry." He got up and sat beside me. "I miss him too. I promise everything will be okay. You need to have faith." He said and brushed some tears off my face. "It feels like it's all my fault. Lennox blamed me for everything. He told me he never would have hired me if he knew how obsessed Sunstreaker was with me. It's my fault he's dead."

He shook his head. "It's not your fault. Please, trust me," he stated and pulled me in a tight embrace. I calmed down and we continued eating. Sideswipe gestured me to sit down next to him. "Do you think Sunstreaker would have wanted you to hurt yourself?" He asked. I gave a brief shake of my head. "He hated it to see me getting hurt. It's just... Sunstreaker gave me joy. He was the first one to make me smile and actually feel happy after my parents died. I never loved anyone like I loved him."

Sideswipe cleaned my arm and wrapped it up in new bandages. "Don't hurt yourself. That's not going to bring him back," Sideswipe mumbled. I knew he was right, but that didn't make it easier. "Alright. I am going take a shower. Thanks for the food and patching me up," I said, getting up. Sideswipe watched me walk off. After a shower I dressed up. Sideswipe had cleaned the entire kitchen and table and was now zapping through some channels. He looked up, "you feel better?" he asked. I gave a small nod and sat down on the couch as well. "What are your plans for today?"

I shrugged. "I don't have plans. Usually, I just go to work and do what I need to do," I replied. We sat in silence until I looked at him again. "How can you be alive? Sunstreaker told me you would die too if he dies," I said. "I will... I am going to die. It's a process, but it explains why I can't feel my twin anymore," Sideswipe replied. "Are you scared?" I asked. "No, I will reunite with my brother in the Allsparks again. We will be together again... I just don't want to die yet," he mumbled and stared at the TV. "I have come so far, survived the war on Cybertron, the pits and my parents... only to die on earth because my brother got executed for his crimes," he said and glanced at me again.

"It's not fair... you shouldn't pay for what happened. Sunstreaker didn't had to die either... I knew how to handle him, Sideswipe. " he shrugged. "We can't change it, Skylar. I don't want to think about it yet either. I feel good for now, but that can change any moment," he sighed. "You need to go to Washington DC. Maybe Ratchet can save you." He huffed. "You know how long I have to drive?"

"39 hours."

He glanced at me. "I drove it all the way here, so that's why I know." He ohh'ed. "Let's travel together." I snorted and shook my head. "Absolutely not, Sideswipe. There's not a change I am going back to Washington DC. You go on your own," I stated. Sideswipe sighed and stared at the wall. "I came to San Diego because... I picked up a signal and thought it would be an Autobot or possibly my brother. I didn't found anything... but I did found you. Date brought us together and I strongly believe we should stick together."

"Ah, yeah, right. So when you die, I am all alone again and have to go through grief again? I don't think so. You go to Washington DC on your own and I stay here!" I snapped. Sideswipe shook his head but shrugged it off. He didn't want to argue with me. He got up. "Where are you going?" I asked. "Taking a nap." He sulked and walked over to the other couch and laid down.

I sighed and threw a blanket over his body. He looked up. "You sort of do care." I sat on the edge. "I never said I didn't," I mumbled. Sideswipe closed his eyes and I stayed until he was out.

((Sideswipe's P.O.V))
As I woke up, Skylar was gone. She's probably doing some groceries or whatever. I called out for her to see if she was gone. No reaction. I hoisted myself up and rubbed my eyes. From the kitchen, I grabbed a snack and settled back down on the couch. Despite my own grief, I was shocked to see a girl be so depressed. I never imagined my brother would find someone that caught his spark. Usually, everyone is running away from him and I somehow felt the urge and need to look after the girl he loved so much. As long as I am able to look after her.

I got up and decided to have a look around. In her room, I found a box with photos. I looked through them, mostly photos of her parents, the farm and then some photos of my brother. He obviously posed for her. Even from this photo, I am able to see the love in reflected in his eyes. He looked happy, calm and proud. Anger rose up, how could Prime have decided this!? I put everything back and shove it back underneath Skylar's back. As I passed the shelf, I noticed my brothers knife was gone. Skylar must have taken it for some reason. Odd.

Skylar came home 30 minutes later and like I assumed, she was holding my brother's knife. "Why did you take that?" I asked as she placed it back on the shelf. "Do you know how many people Sunny killed with it?" she asked. I shook my head. "Hundred of people. He always carried it with him, no matter where he was or where he was going, it was always in his hand. Carrying it with me gives me the feeling a part of him is still with me and it makes me feel secure and save. Maybe because I know the story behind it."

I stepped back as she passed. "Have you decided yet what you're going to do?" she asked. "Honestly, I don't really know. I came here to reunite with my brother but apparently... I won't reunite with him after all. I am pissed and I don't want to face my other team mates but on the other hand, what else am I supposed to do?" I asked. Skylar sat down on the chair and sighed. "I had that same dilemma. I couldn't stay in Washington DC anymore... and I have been thinking. I needed a walk and get things straight. I am willing to travel with you back to Washington DC. I know you are grieving too and it feels wrong to send you away on your own. You have traveled through the galaxy, came to this planet only to figure out your brother is dead. I remember exactly how I felt when I moved to Washington DC with my uncle and didn't know anyone straight after the death of my parents. It's an awful feeling."

I appreciated her offer. "Thank you, Sky. You would do me a favor if you would come with me," I said. She gave a small nod. "But... I hope you realize that once you are settled I am going to leave again. As much I would love to know you better... I don't want to get attached to you like I did to Sunstreaker. You will die too and I can't go through the whole process again. Besides, I don't want to walk around through the base for too long and face my uncle. He murdered me and dumped me int he river... so, I will do this for you. Because it means a lot to you."

I embraced her. "Thank you, Skylar. It means a lot to me."