Fell in love with a psychopath (2)✔️

Chapter 5. Check-up

Skylar wasn't in her room when I searched for her. I guess she's somewhere where no one can find her. Ratchet walked up to me. "I need to check up on Skylar. Do you know where she is?" He asked. I shrugged and shook my head. "Skylar isn't anywhere near... I guess she wants to be alone but I will send her as soon as I spotted her somewhere," I stated. "Find her!" I gave a small nod and watched a Ratchet walk off. I didn't see the haze so I just turned around and slowly started walking.

I spotted some humans in the training room. I wanted to approach and introduce myself but they were talking about me. "I seriously don't understand why Sideswipe is still alive. I mean... nobody wants him here. Why isn't he dead yet?" I looked down at the ground. My joy to meet them had faded completely. I turned around and walked off.

I found Skylar is what appeared to be my brothers old room. Nobody wanted to claim it due to all the things that happened here. "What's wrong?" She asked. I brushed it off hand and waved it off. Sky approached and grasped my hands. "What's wrong?" She asked. I sat down, "I wanted to introduce myself to some people and they were talking about me. They don't want me here."

I looked at Skylar again. She brought her hand to my face and cupped my cheek. "I am sorry." I shrugged and hugged her, nuzzling in her warm neck. She wrapped her arms around me. I know why my brother cares so much about her. "Don't listen to them, Sideswipe. Like you're said, you might be Sunny's twin, but you're not him" I agreed quietly and thought about what she told me. "Anyway, Uhm, Ratchet would like to see you."

Skylar grumbled something under her breath before she turned. "No, I am too busy." I arched a brow, "with what?" I asked. "You don't think I am going to visit Ratchet, right?" She asked. "He had hoped you would." She scoffed and rolled her eyes. "Forget about it." She walked over towards the door. "Sweetspark." I got up and approached. "Don't call me that, Sideswipe." I halted. "Please." She turned again and left me.

((Skylar's P.O.V))
I managed to avoid Ratchet all day but he made it his goal and duty to find me. He caught me around 7 PM and nearly dragged me into the medbay. "Skylar. What happened to you?" He crossed his arms but so did I. "What are you taking about?" I grumbled. "You look so bad. You lost weight, your eyes aren't shining anymore, you don't have the spirit I am used to see. You isolate yourself. According to Sideswipe you cut yourself. Talk to me, otherwise I can't help you," he stated.

"You can't help me, Ratchet. You can fix everything, except a broken heart. Sunstreaker is gone, dumped in the ocean and just thinking about it makes me wanna jump in front of a train. You don't understand." I turned around to leave but he didn't allow me. "Sunstreaker was a dangerous psychopath. Back on Cybertron, bots with this behavior got executed and Sunstreaker was no exception."

"I loved him! You have always believed Sunstreaker is a monster. Maybe if you put more effort in understanding his pain and grief, this all wouldn't have happened. You were his doctor, you were supposed to save his life, not end it. I know how much you hated him. You never intended to help him. You already considered him a lost case even before you came to earth. Here, people get help. Of course it doesn't always work out but I figured out how I could handle him, calm him down. I didn't even had a change to say good bye. The night before, we were watching a stupid movie, eating chips and just enjoyed each other company. He had snuggled into me and next day, he was gone when I woke up. I waited for him all day, only to find out he was gone forever. A piece of me died with him that day, he had asked me for a date that night. Did you know that? He loved me."

I fiercely brushed some tears off my face. "The only reason I am here is because of Sideswipe but I am out of here as soon as possible. I can't look you in the eyes nor Optimus or Ironhide. The mental pain is too much."

"I wanted to help but not everyone can be saved. We tried everything, every possible treatment but Sunstreaker only got more agitated and frustrated," he snapped. "Yes, because hitting him or locking him up brings up bad memories. You should have talked to him, let him draw to express himself. You took away his passion because you thought it would make him only frustrated but that was his therapy to deal with his pain. He grew up in a place where people constantly hurt him. Sunny didn't deserve to go through all of that. Sure, what he was wrong but everyone turned him into this. All I did was showing him the other side. Love and affection. He might be a psychopath but even psychopaths can experience loneliness, pain and isolation. Thats a higher risk for violence and reckless behavior. "

He was a dangerous narcissistic psychopath. Sunstreaker would only ask you for a date in his own benefit. He was having you in his grip. Emotionally and physically. Was he rude at times?" He asked. "He was. Psychopaths lack of self control. I never blamed him for that. Sunstreaker was actually quite affectionate at times and really enjoy snuggles. Psychopath can desire affection and love too.

Ratchet shook his head. "Show me your arm." He forced me to sit down again and looked at my arm without talking. The fact he didn't continued arguing told me he's thinking about all I said. Perhaps he knows he was wrong or didn't use the right method or perhaps he was just done talking about the subject. Either way, it didn't matter. Sunstreaker was dead. It's a pointless argument anyway.