NOBODY SAW THE PAIN, it was always tucked in the back of her mind though, reflecting on her actions when she was left alone during the christmas season last year, her wonderful boyfriend leaving her to go spend time in los angeles with his friends, despite promising that it was a time to spend with only her.
daniel didn't ever see the emotional wreck she had gone through for months, begging herself to not give into her demons that circled all of her insecurities in a large red sharpie mark.
sitting silently at the dinner table, her dads on either end of the table, glancing between themselves and their upset daughter.
"i know it's this season that hurts the most, kailee. we understand that, but we were thinking that we might put you into therapy, only if you're up for it."
"can i stay with mom for a couple of weeks? i think i need a change of scenery." kailee suggested, hoping that they would agree to send her to los angeles.
"of course, sweetheart. whatever you need."
the rest of the dinner was filled with silverware tapping against their plates, kailee picking her meal apart as she continued to think of going to los angeles.
"i'll go call mom."
hurrying off to her room, kailee took a deep breath as she thought about what she would say.
"you know that boy that broke my heart last christmas? how he went left me only to be with his friends and bandmates when he promised me that he would stay here for christmas with me? remember how he lives in los angeles and that's where he ran off to? can i come to los angeles for a couple weeks?"
the brooks girl couldn't help but snort at how horrible of an excuse she'll come up with to her mother, yet either way, her mother would agree.
after speaking to her mother for about an hour, setting up her flight and what was new in one another's lives, the phone call ended.
"hey dads? my flight leave tomorrow at four!"
"sounds good sweetheart!"
as she packed, kailee couldn't help but request her
alexa to play daniel's music, something that she's clung to since the band has begun.
"i used to be your biggest supporter, dan. but i don't know, you're pushing me away because of your career. i understand that you're under a lot of pressure but-"
"i have to go record now, i'll talk to you later."
that was one of the last calls they made to one another. after he had come by for a week and a half, they broke up and only spoke when coming to terms of returning one another's belongings.
yet there was still one saved voicemail he kept. one that he couldn't ever forget.
"dan, why couldn't you love me? why was it so hard to spare me a second glance? how did this happen? it hurts, dan. i fucking miss you. i'm breaking down and i can't stop feeling the need to love you. i can't stop loving you, daniel. it's pathetic, really. you broke up with me, which means you never loved me. you never did love me, did you? i miss you, seavey. i miss the way you used to hold me in the dark, promise me the world as if you could actually give it to me. i miss your passion of anything you ever spoke of, especially when i would sometimes overhear you telling your family or the guys how happy i made you, how much you wanted to stay with me forever. yet there was never a forever, dan. i will never be your forever. but my love for you? that's forever."
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i tried, seavey
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