My Sweets

Tears of Love

JESSA

We walk back into the house after therapy. The car ride home was quiet, which isn't unusual after therapy. Sometimes it takes me a bit to decompress or to absorb what we talked about. I've been seeing a therapist for two weeks now and I think I'm doing really good. Bobby supports me by taking me to every session. He's even sat in on a few of them.

There's still a lingering sadness, but I'm not blaming myself anymore. I'm realizing that my days are filled with more happiness than sadness now. Bobby has been amazing. He's here when I need him and gives me space when I need to be alone. We've gone on so many dates, just having fun and reconnecting. He's been loving and patient with me. His happiness is back, which makes my heart soar.

There's one thing missing though. One thing that we haven't really talked about. One thing that I've been avoiding and he's been respectfully giving me space. Sex. I know he wants it. I know he wants it really bad. When we kiss, I feel the way his body reacts. I feel our intense chemistry swirling around us, but kissing is all we've done. I just haven't felt ready. My doctor cleared me for sex. I have an IUD now so I don't have to worry about messing up birth control pills again. I'm physically ready, but I wasn't emotionally there, until now. I've been thinking about it for a few days already. Bobby doesn't know it, but tonight is the night. I'm excited and nervous. It almost feels like we're having sex for the first time. I want everything to be perfect.

I walk up behind him as he's working in the office. After what happened, he pushed the bakery opening back even further, which was stressing him out. He's now just starting to get back into it. I rub his shoulders and he sighs with appreciation. "Thanks, love," he smiles up at me.

"Whatcha working on?"

"Ordering ingredients. I'm a little nervous because there's no going back once I place this order. This is it."

"I thought there was no going back once you bought the building," I giggle.

"Truth."

"It'll be great, babes. I'm use to having you around all the time though. It'll be strange having you gone all day."

He turns his chair and pulls me down on his lap. I giggle in surprise. "I guess you'll just have to come visit me often then, Lass."

"My body will grow soft if I spend too much time at the bakery. You know I can't turn down your sweets."

"That just means I'm doing a good job. You'll be gorgeous no matter what so my vote goes towards visiting a lot. Like a lot a lot so I can see you all the time."

I giggle and run my hands into his curls. "I think I miss your dreads."

"Oh really? I didn't realize you liked them that much."

I shrug. "You looked good with them. It just reminds me of when we first met."

"Oh I remember when we first met. I was blinded by your beauty."

I smirk at him. "Oh yeah. You were definitely the sweet dessert after the... what was it? Main course of beefcake?"

His laugh fills the room. "Aye. That was it. Your eyes were the first thing I noticed about you. They just sucked me right in. I was completely captivated."

"When you didn't steal me from Rocco, I thought you didn't feel the same connection I felt."

"No. I felt it. I just didn't think I compared to the other lads. I was shocked when you sent me that selfie."

I feel myself blushing with the memory of how bold I was. "I figured I needed to let you know I was interested. I'm still waiting for my dick shaped cake."