My Sweets

Destroying Our Marriage

JUNE 11
Bobby's in London. Last four days of his promotional tour.

JESSA

I pull up his flight again and it's still on time. All day, I've been going back and forth about surprising him at the airport. I woke up and showered, determined to see him. Then I played with the dogs and decided not to. Then I did my makeup with renewed conviction to see him. Then I ate lunch and decided I probably should wait. Now I'm digging through my closet trying to find the perfect outfit to surprise him in.

It would only get to be an airport reunion. He gets in too late. He has fittings tonight and then the next four days are completely packed. We decided to wait until he's finished, but I don't think I can wait. We've been talking and texting, which is making me miss him even more. Something's wrong though. I can hear it in his voice. I know that when he's finally finished with the tour, we're going to have to really fight for our relationship and I'm scared. So I just want a small little moment that seems extra special. I'm just scared and I need to see him to reassure myself that we'll be ok.

I want to be sexy, but not like I'm trying too hard. I throw on a tan, scoop neck bodysuit tank with a pair of short, ripped shorts. It hugs my body and shows off my cleavage, which I know he loves. I finish the look with jewelry and sandals. Perfect. My boobs look good. My legs look good. I look comfortable though.

Now to find Junno. He's outside playing with the dogs. "Hey, Junno. Have I told you that you're my favorite person?"

He chuckles. "What do you want?"

"I want to surprise Bobby at the airport."

He stops throwing the ball for Louie and turns to me. "I thought you guys decided to wait."

"No. Bobby pretty much decided. He doesn't have time and I get that. I want to see him though, even if it's just for a couple of minutes."

"No. I can't do that. Bobby thinks you're waiting and he'll kill me if I take you to a busy airport."

"Let me rephrase this then. Junno, I'm going to surprise Bobby at the airport. Would you like to come with me?" I'm hoping Junno doesn't call my bluff. With as big of a fit I've thrown about being alone, the thought of driving by myself scares the shit out of me. I'm not ready to face that yet. With Bobby heading to London, he finally agreed to let it just be me and Junno here since he'll be close by. I've been enjoying this new quietness.

"Seriously? So if I ask you nicely to stay, you're not going to are you?"

"Nope. I'm going with or without you."

"Alright then. He'll definitely kill me if you go by yourself. When do we need to leave?"

"Now. We'll need to try to avoid the paparazzi. I wouldn't be surprised if they know their flights are coming in today." I really don't want to be seen.

BOBBY

Even though London hasn't been my home for a year yet, it feels like home. Seeing the plane descend on the runway, just makes me feel like I'm coming home. It's going to be hard knowing I'm so close to Jessa, but that I can't see her yet. It's for the best though. I need to tell her what happened, but I need the time to do it. I just have to get through these next four days, ruin my already messed up marriage, and then try to save it.

Ever since that night in Japan, I've avoided Aislinn as much as possible. Obviously I can't completely with all the interviews, but outside of that I'm doing my best. She's making it hard though. She corners me every chance she gets. She has apologized many times, but made it clear that the offer still stands. So I refused her offer to fly with her on her jet.