My Sweets

Plans Interrupted

JESSA

Bobby has been working a lot these last two weeks. Things are really picking up with his movie. He's also decided to open a bakery here. Maleah has been in New York for a modeling gig, so I've unfortunately been alone. Just me and the dogs. I'm excited it's Friday though and Bobby is surprisingly off all weekend.

Bobby comes running in the door. "Where are you, Lass?"

"Living room," I yell. I stand up and he quickly pulls me into his arms, dipping me into an over the top kiss. I giggle as he pulls me to my feet.

"Soo.. when are we taking this test?"

"You're so cute. I love that you're this excited." I boop his nose.

"Of course I'm excited. I want to know if my baby's in here or not." He rubs my flat stomach making my heart clench with his excitement. My period is suppose to start tomorrow. I don't feel pregnant, though I didn't last time until I was six weeks along.

"Well, they say if you test early it should be first morning urine. There's two tests though. Do you want to try one now?"

"Obviously!" He grabs my hand and pulls me into the bathroom. He sits on the edge of the bathtub, bouncing his knee nervously.

"I guess you're staying to watch?"

"Yep. Not missing anything this time."

I giggle at him. My stomach flips as I pull the test out. The last time I took one I was miserable. I wanted it to be negative so badly. This time, I can't wait for it to tell me I'm pregnant.

I pee on the stick and sit it down. "Alright. This one will have two lines if I'm pregnant. Now we wait."

Bobby pulls me in his arms and kisses me. "I love you, Jessa."

"Love you too." We just sit here holding each other until the test is ready.

I hold Bobby's hand tightly as we walk to the counter to look. My stomach drops. It's negative. "I'm disappointed," I say to him. "I guess there's still a chance. I'll test in the morning, but..." I can't stop tears from falling from my eyes.

"Hey, love. No tears. There's still a chance. If not, we get to have lots of great sex this month. It'll happen. Don't worry." I nod, but I can't stop the worry creeping into my mind.

When I wake up the next morning, I sneak out of bed and run to the bathroom. I quickly pee on another test and jump when Bobby knocks on the door. I let him in. He looks so cute disheveled from sleep.

"Did you take one?" I nod and bury myself in his arms. Please be positive, I silently pray.

Negative.

"I'm sorry, Bobby," I whisper.

"Jessa, seriously it's ok. Don't be sad about this. It's common to take a few months to get pregnant."

"I know I just really wanted to give you an anniversary baby."

"Well the anniversary sex was out of this world. It's just not our time yet." He kisses the top of my head. I love that he's being so supportive and encouraging.

Another month goes by and another negative test. A third month goes by and still negative tests.

Bobby finds me crying outside. "Jessa..." He pulls me against his chest.

"I thought we'd for sure get a positive test for Christmas. What's wrong? Why isn't this working?"

"It's only been three months. It's ok."