My Sweets

Self-Conscious

Twins 2 Months Old
JESSA

Crying infiltrates my dream. I stir awake and listen to two babies scream. I'm very thankful they are on the exact same schedule. They've been like that since the beginning. I don't know how it happened, but I am blessed that they are. I go to get up when Bobby eases me back down and kisses me. "I'll get them, love. Get some more sleep." Yes. I truly am blessed. Blessed with the most perfect little family.

I snuggle back in as I hear the babies finally stop crying. I know Bobby has them both cuddled safely on his lap with a bottle in each mouth. Watching him flourish into being a daddy has melted my heart. He is amazing with the girls. When they first came home two months ago, I know he was scared shitless at first. Hell I was too, but you wouldn't know it now. He's a perfect daddy. The girls and I are so lucky to have him. I try to fall back asleep, but I can't. They've started sleeping longer through the night and I miss them. I creep down the hall and peek into the nursery. Bobby has each girl on his shoulder, singing to them softly. I treasure this moment, imprinting it into my memory. This right here is what life is all about. This is true and pure love.

Bobby spots me and gives me the cutest smile. He throws me a wink as I walk towards them. I take Faye from his arms, give her a little kiss and place her in her crib. Bobby stands up and I give Aria a small kiss before he lays her down.

"Come on, daddy," I whisper. "The quickest way to mommy's heart right now is by taking care of the girls." I lead him silently into our room and then attack him with an impassioned kiss. His hands roam up my back and I melt into his embrace. "I miss you," I whisper into his mouth. "Make love to me."

His smirk is goofy. I see excitement and heat in his eyes. We haven't had sex since I was put on pelvic rest while pregnant. I am beyond horny and I need to make love to my man.

We make quick work of removing our clothes. I hesitate, stopping his hands as he goes to pull my shirt off. "Jessa..." he whispers. "You're gorgeous and fucking hot. Relax, love." He kisses my neck, melting me and quickly pulls my shirt over my head. My arms instinctively tries to hide my stomach. I'm so self conscious about the changes in my body. He eases me down on the bed and kisses my neck, gently pulling at my skin. He pulls away and stares longingly at my breasts. "I cannot wait for the day I can claim your boobs again."

I giggle at that. "Well the rest of my body needs claimed. Get to work." My core is heated and I need to feel his touch.

He cocks an eyebrow at me before crashing his lips against mine again. He sneaks his hand between us and begins rubbing my wetness. Yes! I definitely needed this. I moan instantly. I'm relieved to feel our same passionate chemistry sucking us in. I was worried parenthood would steal it away. Finally, I find the release I was desperately looking for. I'm a little sad that he didn't claim me with his mouth like he always use to, but his fingers did a damn good job.

He positions himself between my legs and slowly buries himself deeply inside me. We both moan in pleasure. I notice Bobby's body does a little shiver at the sensation. "You feel so good, baby. I was worried it'd be different but this feels like home. Fuck this feels good." My mind pushes his words away. I'll focus on that later. Right now, I'm enjoying this feeling. I'm enjoying the feeling of being complete again. I'm enjoying the buildup.

"BOBBY!" I say in a panic. "Condom."

"Bloody hell. God damn stupid things."

"I can't handle another baby right now."

"No! No!" He quickly grabs it and puts on a despised condom. He works himself in and out and my body reacts by building itself back up again. He eventually slams into me pushing me over the ledge of pleasure. I clinch around his cock, pulling him into an orgasm. "I needed that," he says to me as he plants a small kiss on my shoulder. "I didn't realize how badly I needed that until now. I missed being with you like this."