Girls Like You

Chapter 15 - Overthinker

Angela's POV

It's already Monday and I'm still here in my room, not in the mood to go to school. I just don't feel like going. I know that she already said she's sorry for not texting me back. Ngumiti ako na agad ding nawala matapos kong maalala ang paghingi nya ng tawad kahit wala naman kaming relasyon. It just feels good na she cares about my feelings, does she? 

"You sure it's okay not to worry about not showing in school?" It's Mom. Always worrying about everything. Well, not literally everything.

"I already said three times, Mom. It's okay!" I answered her, trying not to sound annoyed.

I wonder what she's doing right now. I looked at the clock. Oh, it's already 11:30. I've been here 4 hours doing nothing and staring in a random direction, thinking of her. Nagdadalawang isip ako if I'll attend the last two classes in the afternoon or wag na lang. But in the end, hindi talaga ako pumasok. I've received lots of texts and missed calls from Sofia asking me why I didn't go to school. I just told her that I'm not in the mood. Ayoko na syang mag-alala pa dahil sakin. 

That's when I heard my tummy. I haven't eaten since lunch. It's already 2 pm. I should eat but I'm too lazy to get out of bed. Kaya tiniis ko ang katamaran ko and went to the kitchen to get some food. I saw Mom watching TV in the living room. Tbh, hindi ko pa din sinasabi kay Mom ung about my situation kase ayoko din siyang mag-alala. Kaya, I didn't say a single word.

"Oh, you're awake. I'm sure you're hungry so I made you some sandwiches." So I went to the dining room to eat. 

After eating, I went back to my bedroom. Then, I heard Mom's voice. It looks like she's talking to someone. Kaya pinilit kong tumayo para tignan kung among meron sa baba. It was Sofia. What is she doing here? I already told her na I'm fine naman talaga. And she doesn't need to go here just to make sure. 

"What are you doing here? Diba sinabi ko na sayo na I'm fine" 

"I just wanna make sure you're really doing fine. Bakit kase hindi ka pumasok? Monday pa naman. Buti na lang hindi nag quiz kundi lagot ka" Nangsermon pa nga.

After that sermon, kinuwentuhan ako ng Sofia ng mga nangyari sa school nung wala ako. Wala namang interesting na nangyari. Just one thing. That Miss Andrea is not in a good mood while teaching. I don't know what to feel actually. Maybe inis sa sarili ko. Inis dahil hindi ko muna inalam ang side niya. Nagtampo agad ako. Wait, why am I thinking this way? Hindi naman kami. And it will never be us. I know that for sure. 

Maybe tomorrow, I'll be okay. Magkakaroon na siguro ako ng lakas ng loob na makita sya in school. But I also feel sad kase hindi ko nacelebrate ang birthday nya with her. Whenever I remember her, I felt happy. Kase ngayon lang ako nagkaganto sa isang tao like her. To be honest, hindi ako makapaniwala na I fell so hard for her. Minsan napanaginipan ko siya. She's in my arms under the starry sky. No noise. No problem in mind. Just us. Parang totoo siyang nangyayari. We are so happy together. 

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I woke up because of the sound of my alarm clock. It's already 6 am. I should get up and get ready for school. Sayang naman yung tuition na binabayaran nila Mom and Dad kung hindi ako papasok eh. Kaya, I'm here na in the bathroom taking a quick bath. I just got some sandwiches and went out of the house because I might be late again. But I said goodbye to my parents before leaving of course. So I was eating while going to school. 

When I reached the campus, napatingin ako sa direksyon ng office niya. I miss her already. Bakit kase nagiinarte pa ako? I didn't do anything wrong. I checked my watch. It's still 6:40 in the morning. Baka wala pa sya doon. I'll wait for her na lang sa classroom when it's math time na. I honestly want to see her beautiful face right now. I also miss her voice:((

Pagpasok ko naman sa classroom, sigaw ni Sofia ang una kong narinig. Kaaga aga, sinisigawan ako. Otor welp. 

Balakadyan! Ang tagal mong hindi nagparamdam eh!

The first period started. Nothing interesting happened. Just some discussion of a new topic. Ilang weeks na lang next quarter na kami. Parang kailan lang. That's why Miss Hanna, our English teacher said:

"Guys, you should study hard to pass the quarterly exams. Few weeks left. If I am not mistaken maybe 3 weeks left before examinations. Kaya do your best. I believe in you guys".

Ang bait talaga ng English teacher namin. She's one of the best English teachers that I've met. After complimenting her, the bell rang. The first period is done. Instead of being excited, why do I feel nervous? Diba gusto ko siyang makita then why? My hands are shaking. Kadalasan pagkatapos ng isang subject, magdadaldalan kami nila Sofia while waiting for the next subject. But now, naririnig ko lang sila na naguusap but hindi ako sumasagot sa sobrang kaba. I don't know why. Baka hindi niya ako pansinin. Baka ayaw na nya akong maging estudyante. Worse is baka ayaw na niya akong maging kaibigan at mas along baka ayaw na niya sakin. 

Overthinker ang peg!

While watching my hands shake, I heard a voice of an angel. The voice that you wanted to hear every day. The voice of that particular person. The reason for my shaking hands. The reason why I didn't go to school yesterday. 

"Good morning class!". She greeted with a straight face. Still beautiful.

I wanted to show her that I'm happy to be back. That I'm happy to see her again. But I didn't even smile or anything. I didn't even greet her back together with my classmates. Ni hindi nga ako tumayo eh to greet her back. I don't know why. Is it because of my lazy ass?

"Good morning, Rodriguez" That's when I stood and greeted her back. I feel like my nervousness got even worse. 

Math period went well. She just gave some pointers for the exam and asked us which lesson is confusing so that she can teach it again. When the bell rang, she dismissed us. I was expecting her to let me stay. Like before "Rodriguez, stay". But I never heard it. So I left the room with sadness and disappointment. 

I was about to enter the cafeteria when I walked passed by Miss Hanna. I greeted her and smiled. 

"You're gonna eat, Angel?". Wow, may paggamit ng nickname na wala pang gumagamit. Special yarn?

"Yeah, wanna join me?" I insisted kaya wala na syang nagawa. These past few weeks, madalas na kami magkasama, pwera na lang kung may mga need na ipasa na requirements. Hindi kami nakakapagkita. During lunch lang at breaktime na minsan lang mangyare dahil may times na sobrang busy nilang mga teachers. 

Ang bilis gumaan ng loob ko sa kanya. She's one of the best English teachers I've met. I know ilang ulit ko na itong sinabi but it's the truth. She's so good in teaching. I admire her for that. May times pa na may ilang students ang nagiging close nya. But I think kami yung pinaka close. There are times naman na napakaclingy nya. I don't mind though since close na rin naman kami. I remember one time when Miss Andrea saw me exited Miss Hanna's office. Her stares are kinda scary. 

"You two are so close already huh." I know its a statement kaya I smiled at her. 

"Yeah, kinda. But I only want to be closer to you." Confident kong banat sa kanya na nagpairap sa kanya. I just chuckled.