Dirty Secret (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 36

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"Ma'am, nandito na po tayo."

Napakurap-kurap ako ng magsalita ang driver ng taxing sinasakyan ko. I looked outside the window and true to his words, we are already here. The massive and towering gate of Damascus household is right beside us. Madilim na rin ang paligid at sa tantya ko ay ala-sais na ng gabi.

Hindi ko na matandaan kung paano ako nakaalis sa kotse ni Benj. I was overwhelmed with his confession that shutdown my senses. Namalayaan ko na lamang na nasa labas na ako ng kotse niya at pinaharurut niya iyon palayo. Kahit ang ibang sinabi niya ay hindi na pumasok sa isip ko.

All I can think about was the fact that he is not a gay. The man whom I trusted the most, the man who got to know me personally, the only man that I let myself be attached other than Drake and my father is a straight, and is not really the person that I assumed he is .

To make it worst, Benj betrayed and played with me.

Pinaramdam niya sa akin kung gaano ako katanga at madaling mapaniwala. Pinaramdam niya sa akin kung gaano kasaklap at kasakit ang maloko ng taong pinagkakatiwalaan mo.

"Salamat po."

Binigay ko kay manong ang limang-daan at hindi na hinintay pa ang sukli. Pagkatapos bumaba na ako ng sasakyan. Malungkot kong tiningala ang bakal na gate sa harapan.

Ang mga bulaklak na una kong napansin noon ay mas yumabong pa at bumulaklak. Kung noon, isang tingin lang sa paborito kong bulaklak ay napapagaan na nito ang nararamdaman ko, siguro magagawa ko nang ngumiti ng payapa at walang halong pait sa oras na ito.

The flowers in front of me is a sight to be hold. But sadly, kahit ilang pumpon pa siguro ng sunflowers o kahit maubos na ang lahat ng mayroon nun dito ay hindi mababago ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. That even my sweetest comfort is unable to lift up my mood and emotions.

I take a fortifying gulp as I walk with my reeling knees towards the entrance. The guard instantly opened the gate upon seeing me.

So, Dwayne didn't instruct them yet?

What will be his reaction if he saw me walking freely on his territory?

I just can't move out from here, wala rin akong ibang lugar na maaring mapaglipasan ng gabi bukod sa unit ni Drake. If only Benj and I are fine, sa kanila muna sana ako makikitulog kahit isang gabi lang. And speaking of Drake..

The phone on the pocket of my skirt vibrated, I fished it out and saw his name on the screen. I chewed on my bottom lip. I just left the school without him. Hindi ko na hinintay pa ang pagdating niya. Na kung tutuusin may usapan kaming susunduin niya ako. At kung wala pa ngang tumawag sa kaniya baka hindi na 'yon umalis at hinintay nalang ako.

I didn't answer the call and wait until it ends. Subalit, lumitaw muli ang kaniyang pangalan sa isang tawag. I sighed and shrugged my shoulders. Tinago ko ulit 'yon sa aking bulsa at hindi na nag-abalang sagutin ang tawag niya.

It aches me that we have to go through this misery. Hindi ba pwedeng maging masaya nalang kami?  Couldn't they give us the chance to be together and let the love that we have for each other, rule us?

Walang kaalam-alam si Drake sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko. At wala rin akong balak na ipaalam pa iyon sa kaniya. He has a lot on his plate already. I want him to focus on achieving his dreams instead of me.
I don't want him worrying over me, especially that he is a graduating student. Ilang buwan na lang matatapos na siya. Kaya ko pa naman, kakayanin ko.

Dahan-dahan kong tinahak ang malawak na daan patungo sa kanilang elaganteng bahay. The lights were dimmed and only the lights from the fountain was illuminating the whole place. Malayo pa man kitang kita ko na ang ilaw na nagmumula sa ilalim no'n. It was an extravagant fountain.