Dirty Secret (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 6

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They say love complicates things. Dahil sa pagmamahal kaya may gulo. That because of love, it weakens ones capability to think rationally. Because of love, there are people who's suffering from undying pain and regrets. The pain that they've felt because of their unrequited love. And the regrets of not having their true love in their arms.

Is love really is the root of it?

I smiled bitterly.

In my point, no. I won't blame my future misfortune to love. Hindi kasalanan ang magmahal. Love for me was the greatest feeling a man can possess. Being in love and to be loved.

Kahit hindi man suklian ang pagmamahal ko ng taong mamahalin ko, wala akong sisihin na kahit ano o sino. Kasi desisyon ko 'yon, it is my free will to enter into that kind of relationship. It is all on me, as to why I am experiencing the agony if any.

Yes, I may feel regrets but that regrets will turn me into a better individual. A fine and fully grown lady.

"Ang swerte ng babae kuya." Mahinahon kong sabi. We are looking intently on the eyes.

"You think so?" his voice was so serious. Tumango ako bago ibaling ang tingin sa harap.

"She's so blessed for being loved by you. You are a Damascus kaya!" I chuckled. "Our family was a good catch, kaya dapat ipakilala mo na!" hindi siya nagsalita.

I sighed. "You know I have a friend of mine na nasaktan because she caught her boyfriend cheating." Panimula ko, marahan akong natawa ng maalala ang pangyayaring iyon.

It was during her eighteenth birthday na hindi sumipot ang boyfriend sa party niya. Then she decided na puntahan ang condo ng lalaki only to see him making out with another girl. After that night, every time she entered in a relationship, she will end up being cheated.

Hindi ko alam anong problema ng mga lalaki ngayon. Hindi nakukuntento sa isa, gusto laging may reserba.

"Loving someone was never a sin. It's not because she is unreachable or you thought the wrong person."

I choose not to look at him. Kahit alam kong kanina pa siya nakatitig sa mukha ko.

"Once you already feel the feeling dept into your heart. You will do anything and everything in your power to have that person caged in your arms." Naiilang na ako sa tingin niya. But I choose to continue.

"Hindi sapat na dahilan ang hindi mo siya maabot o ano pa man. Kung mahal mo talaga ang isang tao. Gagawin at gagawin mo ang lahat para sa kaniya. Nevermind the risk.. nevermind the struggle, basta para sa mahal mo, isugal mo." Nanatiling blangko ang kaniyang mukha. Walang mababasang emosyon.

"And you will treasure the person. Hindi ka gagawa ng ikasisira ng relasyon niyo. Kasi imagine the effort that you made just to win her heart. Tapos magloloko ka lang?" I chuckled before looking into the sky. It's beautiful kahit maambon.

"I am not saying this kasi nagkajowa na ako huh!" marahan akong tumawa.
"Sadyang 'yan ang pinaniniwalan ko."

Tumayo ako bago naglakad sa railing ng tulay. Kumuha ako ng pantali sa clutch na dala. Nililipad kasi ang buhok ko dahil sa hangin. Nakangiti kong pinagmasdan ang dagat sa ilalim. Kahit malayo, tanaw pa rin ang linaw nito. Nakakamiss maligo nang dagat. Napalingon ako sa likuran, nanatili siyang nakasandal sa kotse.

"Kuya ang ganda!" malawak ang ngiti ko habang nanatiling seryoso ang mukha niya.

"What?" I asked, napansin ko kasing may sinabi siya.