SamBucky one shots

strong

A/N: words: 503 (im very sorry i had to rush this at school between classes) but yeah anyway IM BACK. yay. i hve like 5 other oneshots to post so look out of those. UM OH YEAH SPOILER WARNING FOR WHAT IF...? EPISODE 5 9 (yall know whats going down). yeah anyway enjoy! 

"I should be sad, but I'm not."

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Sam laid in Bucky's arms, pretending to be completely unaware of what was happening behind the door of the safe house. Bucky had his arms tight around Sam determined not to let him go. He wasn't gonna let him go.

"Buck." Sam muttered, his voice soft and small. "Yeah?" Bucky said, equally soft, it was barely louder than a whisper. "If- if they get either one of us, we have to- we have to stay strong, alright?" Sam said, and Bucky felt his entire body tense up. "They won't."

"Buck, it isn't the time for your optimism I usually adore." Sam tried to make a joke with it, but it didn't work very well. "Just..." Sam breathed out, trying to form a proper sentence, something to make sense of whatever was going on in the world. "Promise me, that if we have to-"

"Don't." Bucky said softly, moving his head down to rest on Sam shoulder. "Don't say that. It's gonna be ok." he knew it wouldn't be. He knew that one way or another, at least one of them was going to be taken. He didn't want to believe it, he knew it would only distract him from right now. From Sam. "Jamie, we know what's gonna happen, please." this was a plea, this was something Sam needed.

"I know Sammy, I know. I just..."

"Wish it didn't have to be like this." Sam supplied, titling his head to look at Bucky. With a sigh, Bucky nodded. "I promise, I'll try to stay strong." Bucky muttered, pressing a soft kiss to Sam's temple. "So will I." Sam whisperer. So they stayed like that, hoping, praying, that it wouldn't be their fate. That's why they stayed like that, lost in each other's arms, each other's eyes, each other's soft, tired smiles Because they were so, so, tired.

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When the moment came, when Bucky looked into the eyes that only weeks he could drown in, and he found nothing. The fact should've torn him apart, but it doesn't. He should've been have been devastated, but he wasn't. He made a promise. Or because that after everything, after everything he's been through, it all made him go numb. He thought that numbness died with Sam, and maybe it did. But when he looked into the eyes he used to know, the eyes that held warmth, maybe all the pain, all the darkness, all the numbness came back. Because all the light he had was in those eyes.

And now it's gone. All of it.

"I should be sad, but I'm not."

He said he'll stay strong. So that's why when Bucky runs into battle, his will stronger than ever, he knows he'll see Sam again. Because he was strong. They both were. 

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As Bucky feels himself let go, feels the virus slowly take over his body, his mind, he hears his voice.

"I'm always strong, aren't I."

Then Sam.

"The strongest."

Bucky again.

"Hm, you're stronger."

Then darkness.