A Very Gay Highschool Story

Talk

I am going to combine both halves of the ships into one chapter starting now.

Loki

It's been a while since I have at least formally talked to Mobius. Just a few acknowledging "Hi's" in the hallway, but that was about it. He looked like he regrets what happened, and that makes me question everything. Didn't he want the kiss? He was the one who initiated it. It wasn't a long kiss, but I enjoyed what I got. But maybe that's not what he regretted. Maybe he regretted kissing me because I was basically Hela's little brother, and he was afraid of her actions if/ when she finds out. 

I think I should tell Hela. Maybe that would get Mobius back and willing to talk, or just make some unneeded drama between the three of us. But she needs to know why he doesn't come here anymore. So, Monday, after school, I tell her. Once we are home.

"Hey." I say, poking my head into her room.

"Hey." She said, looking up from her computer.

"I think I have something that I need to tell you." I tell her, sounding a bit guilty. 

"Uhm, okay." She said, sounding a bit unsure.

"It's the thing with Mobius." I tell her, then she looked interested. 

"Okay." She said encouragingly, obviously wanting me to tell her what had happened.

"Uhm, well, he, kind of. Well..." I stumble over my words. I take a deep breath. Just say it. "He kinda, sorta, maybe.... Kissed me?"

She stared at me in disbelief as she processed the information that I had shared with her. She looked shocked, then angry, then I got scared. 

She was going to hurt me.

She stands up and aggressively approaches me and I cower. She notices and softens her body language and expression. I see sympathy cross her face before she started to speak.

"I'm not mad at you and I am not going ti hurt you, okay?" She states. "Now, did he force you to kiss him?"

"No. He just went and kissed me, then immediately regretted it." I explain to her. "He pulled away and apologized, before running off."

"Were you okay with it? Did you feel violated?" She asked.

"I didn't feel violated. I was fine." I tell her in complete honesty.

"Are you sure? Are you trying to cover for him?" She questioned, sounding very concerned for me.

"I am not covering for him. Every time I see him, he always looks guilty. 's why he never comes over anymore. He feels guilty about it." I tell her.

"Alright." She sighs. "I believe you."

"Can you talk to him for me?" I ask her, and she looks at me, confused. "Tell him that I didn't mind that he kissed me. That he doesn't need to feel guilty that he kissed me."

"Will do." She says, sounding like she was suspicious. I left her room, going back to mine and laying on my bed.

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Mobius

I was laying on my bed, in pain, both physically and emotionally. I hear my phone buzz on the floor. I wince as I stand up and retrieve it from it's spot on the floor.  I pick it up and see a text from Hela. 

Hela: He says he didn't mind the kiss and that you don't need to feel guilty about it. He is fine. He doesn't feel like you forced it on him. He likes you too dipshit.

Hela: he may not have said the last part, that might have been just me

Me: So he told you

Hela: of course he did

Hela: I was mad at first, but he defended you and explained everything that happened.

Me: do you still wanna be friends?

Hela: I do. And if/ when you ask him, don't hurt him or we won't be friends anymore. 

Me: I promise

So, I basically have her permission to date Loki. My emotional pain went down a little. But he was two years younger than I am, and that might be a bit strange for when I start college. If I do ask him out, I'll work that issue out later. I felt happy, not like I haven't felt happy before, but this feels different. A better kind of happy, and it felt good to feel.

I floated on this feeling until to the next day on Tuesday. I saw him in the hallway and my heart fluttered. I smiled at him and waived as we passed by each other.

"Hey." I greet as I pass by him.

"Hello." He said with a smile, blushing a little. 

He was adorable. I am seriously considering asking him out tomorrow. I don't really remember what drew me into him, maybe his blush, maybe his oddly English accent, maybe something else. But I know that there is something about him that did draw me in. Maybe it's just because he is so adorably cute and awkward, especially awkward around me. I hope Hela was right in assuming that he liked me back. It might be weird to be one of the Seniors dating an underclassman. Maybe people will overlook that fact because it's gay. People tend to do that here. 

Tomorrow was going to be great. Really, really great. Amazing even.