A Very Gay Highschool Story

Feelings Renewed

Bruce

It was a Friday so that meant I was going to visit the Odinson house hold. I never thought of this before, but their father's name is Odin Odinson, which is kinda funny if you think about it. 

Having your first name be the prefix of your last name is kind of lazy on the parents part.

I arrive at the house, and thankfully I don't get another safe sex talk from Thor's parents. I don't know if I could sit through another safe sex talk from my ex-crushes parents. I think I'd die if I did. I almost died the first time. 

I immediately went for Thor's room and knocked on his door, wanting to avoid his family out of embarrassment. I hear heavy steps from the other side of the door, and Thor opens the door with his charming, kind smile. I felt my heart flutter. 

No not again. I can't catch another set of feelings for him.

"Are you ready?" I ask, not as nervously as I had in the past, now being kind of comfortable in his presence. 

"Of course." He says cheerily. "I understand what I am doing, somewhat."

"If you understand what you're doing in this unit, why do you continue to keep me around for the rest of the unit?" I ask him, a bit confused as to why he did. He didn't need me if he understood.

"I said I somewhat understood what I was doing." He explains. "I keep you around to check my work so that I know that I got my work right so that I won't repeat the mistake again."

So I sit with him at his desk and point out his mistakes, and he fixes him. I was patient with him and he was patient with me. He was my favorite peer that I have tutored because he was patient. He saw that I was shy, and he didn't try to push me out of it or change tutors because of it. 

He was really kind, a bit of a himbo though.

At the end of the tutoring, he offered that I stay for dinner, but I decline. I go home, where I fully accept what was going on. I was catching feelings for Thor. Again. This is stupid, he's straight. Why do the gays fall for straight people, I find it very frustrating on my end, especially when they're someone who I'd fall for. Like Thor, for example. 

The blonde himbo with a heart of gold. I just had to fall for him for a second time like an idiot.

I do my homework, eat my dinner, do more homework, then go to bed. I hate myself so much for falling for Thor again. I thought when I got over my crush on him, it would never come back. But it did. And I greatly dislike it. Feelings are stupid, and I plan on burying these deep, deep inside. So deep inside that they'll never see the light again.

Sleep finally takes me over, and what I dreamt would make my plan of repressing my feelings harder than I thought it would be. I saw him, and it goes downhill for me from there. There was dancing and some other things that I am too embarrassed to mention, or even admit to myself. I hate having feelings, they make me think things I don't want to about people I can't have feelings for, which sucks on my part.