Within The Ash

Chapter 36

Zero's POV

I didn't actually want to go to bed as my mind wouldn't stop racing.

I walked through the forest and stopped at the same river from earlier.

I gazed upon its clear beauty and imagined what it would be like to dunk my head under and force my lungs to breath water.

The longing to not breathe again was strong and I wanted to feel something other than the pain that I felt in my chest.

I felt completely broken. My heart was in little tiny pieces and even the broken pieces held blood.

I knelt down beside the clear water and dunked my head under.

I waited till holding my breath became painful and closed my eyes with the sensation of no air.

Just than I heard Lucifer's strong voice behind me.

"Hey dude, come look at this" He said as i violently lifted my head from the water with gasps.

"I made this awesome weed pipe" He said as he held a wooden device that had loose weed leaves inside the hollow part at the end.

I sat looking up at him with my legs stretched out in front of me.

My hair hung soaking over my face and the water that tricked down hid the fact that I had been crying and my hair hid the pain that was probably showing heavily in my eyes.

His look changed from excited to serious once he saw how i looked.

"Whats going on man" he said as he stared down at me.

I looked up at him and smiled from ear to ear.

"The water is relaxing as hell, I felt dirty" I said trying to hide all feelings.

"come on lets go get fucked up" he said as he held up the device he had made for weed.

Violets POV

Everybody was sharing their stories around the fire so I figured I would share my own no matter how painful it was.

"When I was just a little girl, I was kidnapped by vampires. They took me right from the arms of my mother. I tried to fight back but they killed her right in front of me. They held her down and drank every drop of blood she had. And as she laid motionless and void of all life, I ran to her corpse and held her with dear life but those strong hands were wrapped around me again and I was ripped from her. They took me to their castle and I was raped repeatedly for years.

They kept me in a small room where the doors were bolted shut and only could be open with a special key that was held by the vampire who controlled me. I was used as both a sex slave and a blood slave"

The story was too hard to tell even tho there was so much more to tell.

Zero ran his fingers through my hair as tears rolled down my face. I didn't even want to cry and it made it worse when Zero tried to wipe them for everybody to see.

I looked up at him to see that my story had brought him to tears. He was actually sad for me.

After Zero shared his story I caught myself starring at the beautiful view that was Cain. He was absolutely beautiful and I couldn't get him out of my mind. I knew it would hurt Zero and this was my chance to see if Zero actually had feelings.

I didn't want to hurt Zero but at the same time I wanted to hurt him more than anybody in this world.

Cain stood up and brushed the dirt from his jeans.

"I gotta go take a piss"

"Hey Cain, can I talk to you about something?" I asked as Zero lifted one eye brow in curiosity.

Cain looked at Zero as if he were asking permission but Zero didn't answer and just looked at him waiting for the question to slip out of his mouth.

"Is it OK if she comes with me man" he asked politely as Zero responded right after.

"I don't give a fuck, she's her own person, I don't control anybody" he said calmly as he stared at the fire in front of him.

I followed him into the Forrest knowing fully what I was going to do and what the consequence would be.

As I spoke to him I could tell he wanted every part of me but he was denying it for Zero's sake.

I had finally convinced him by taking off my shirt and his eyes as he looked down at me told me everything.

I got on my knees and watched as he reviled himself that was through the zipper of his jeans.

I slowly explored him with my mouth and I watched as the pleasure took over him. He threw his head against the tree and breathed slow sighs as I continued.

I stood to my feet and he immediately held me against the tree where he spread my legs and had his way with me. I couldn't help but moan his name and he covered my mouth quickly but it was too late.

Zero stood behind us and quickly yanked Cain off me and threw him to the ground. We both tried to apologize but Zero was too hurt. The damage was already done.

I didn't know why I wanted to hurt him so bad. Now that I've actually done it, it doesn't feel the way I thought it would.

I thought that I'd feel empowered by hurting such a strong man like Zero but I realized very quickly that by hurting Zero, I deeply hurt myself.

I felt terrible and no amount of apology's would console him enough to forgive me this time.

I had to wait till he was calmed down.

He told me not to disturb his sleep but I don't believe for a second that he would ever hurt me like he said he would.

Zero could never hurt me, hell he wouldn't be able to hurt anybody who is smaller than him. He's not capable of it.

I sat outside by the fire as the sky was at its darkest and every body accept for Cain and I went to bed. Cain sat on the other side of me and he glared at me with resentment.

"I'm sorry Cain" I said as he cut me off immediately.

"You shouldn't be apologizing to me Violet, I'm not your boyfriend. You really hurt the man and he loved you with all his heart, apologize to him not me" he said calmly as he rested his eyes on the fire.

"Zero won't accept my apology" I said with a whisper as I kicked at the dirt with my bare feet.

"And who's fault is that?" He said coldly as he rolled his eyes.

"You're the one who fucked me Cain" I said coldly with an attitude.

Cain laughed but quickly returned to his serious tone.

"I understand my fault Violet, but it takes two and you played a part in most of that. I can't make Zero forgive either of us but you know him better than I do and you held the power to hurt him right in your hands"

His words were true and I wasn't ready to hear them. They cut me deep but I cut Zero even deeper.

I could smell the weed coming from Zero's fort in the entrance of the Forrest. He was awake with his thoughts and it tore me apart knowing I couldn't be there to console him.

I've never been the one to ease his mind but now that I see who he really is, I wanted so badly to see him smile.

I slowly walked over to his fort and I could visibly see the smoke from his joint forming mists outside.