Love, is not for us

#5 - You're quite sweet

Tiara

"Are you very sure about this, baby", James asking me with a concern look in his eyes.

I'm always very careful in every single thing that I do and in every decisions that I make. I don't do things without a proper plan. The last thing I'd do before I go to sleep, is to plan my day. The first thing I'd do when I'm awake, is to mentally note the things I have planned the night before. Which is why, gathering my dirty clothes and do my laundry was my first actual to do list this morning. Certainly, not having James on my bed, yet again. Same goes to this Friends with Benefits thing, last night, the night after the club, these are nowhere in my plans and to-do list. So far, in this short time I have spent with James, nothing I've done is a part of any plans.

But, when he proposed this arrangement, it wasn't something that I agreed on the spur of the moment. I had carefully weigh the pros & cons before I answered him.

Earlier, I had a good look at myself in the mirror. I had a look of content. I was glowing. I had blushed yet again, seeing the marks he had made which reminds me I will need to make sure I have enough concealer stocked up. I can't remember when was the last time I felt this good. It's not like I have been unhappy, but I felt enclosed and constantly guarded.

This morning, I felt light and free. I don't know if its due to the sexual experience or the thrill of doing something out of my norms & routines. But I do know, I want these feelings to stay. So, I'm willing to take the risks for these feelings despite whatever possible disadvantages it might come with.

I assured him with a smile and covers his lips with mine before entering my tongue and we battled for dominance. I heard his groan and I smiled wider into our kiss.

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I'm standing in the middle of my kitchen, frowning deeply with one hand on my hips while another hand holding out a black lacy g-string towards James. Earlier, I walked into my room and discovered sets of lingeries, lots of them, covering my entire king size bed.

"What's this and whose is this?", I questioned James who are searching for snacks in my fridge, definitely making himself comfortable in my humble abode.

"Who else if it's not yours and seeing you are the one with the amazing boobs & bum, I would think you know what's that for.", he answered.

The last 4 weeks we have spent crazy amount of time together, most of the time naked and panting. I feel great and amazing after each sessions. But, James is still annoying and the same grumpy, broody man. And sometimes, I feel he just enjoy making me angry and irritated.

"It's not mine! and yes, I know what is it for but what I meant is, what are they doing covering my entire bed?", I was starting to fume if i wasn't already.

"I bought them for you. To wear.", depending on his mood and tonight clearly he is on the grumpy side, he loves giving me a vague and short answers. Like, can't he explain what's his objective of buying them for me? Are my choice of lingeries too boring for him? Is it not attractive?

After settling with MY peanut butter & jelly, and a cup of coffee in MY favourite cup, he sat down on my sofa and pat the seat, gesturing for me to join him.

"No." I took my laptop and sat in the kitchen to check some emails.

He rolled his eyes and finishes his snacks before taking slow steps towards me.