Love, is not for us

#12 - Telling the mothers

James

Coming back from the doctor had me in mixed emotions. Scared, anxious, overwhelmed, stressed and somewhere in between, there's a feeling that I can't figure out what is. It's a damn good feeling that I think is what keeps me going.

Tiara's in her room, talking to her mom. She said she can't keep it any longer from her family. She insist that I should do the same too so, I sent a message to my mom earlier since it's 2am there. I'm surprised that she's still awake when she called me right away. She mainly called to confirm that I'll be part of the baby's and the mom's life and to check if I'm okay. She took it very well, proud even.

Tiara walks out from her room and sit on my lap.

Before I could ask her, she asks me first, "You spoke to your mom too?"

"Yea, I text her and she called me right away. She sounds okay with the news. Said, can't wait to meet you and the baby", she smiled hearing this.

"How was yours?"

"Hmm... just as expected. She's obviously angry and disappointed. She wants to meet the father, but I lied to her that, the father is outstation and doesn't know anything yet. I'm not ready for that. Like you said, one thing at a time.", she said with a quiet voice. She looks so tired.

"I didn't know you could lie. I thought you're all prim & proper.", I teased her.

"Yeah you're right. I started to lie, keep a secret, slept with a stranger since I met you. You're a bad bad influence Mr Scott."

"That's not a bad influence Miss Roger, that's the thrill of life that you have been missing out.", I replied while playing with her hair. Playing with her hair is a new habit that I've picked up which puts me in a good mood.

"Want to take a bath, babe?", I tried my luck. Although I've touched, seen, tasted every inch of her, she always refuse bath time with me. Too shy.

"Together?"
"Yeah"

She remains silent and got up to her room. "Babe?", I called her. Is she angry? Is this one of the hormonal effects I need to be careful of?

I followed her and as I entered the room, she came out from the bathroom.

She gave me a teasing, seductive smile, "I'm filling up the tub, babe." Oh.

—

She's playing with the bubble and her giggles filling up the bathroom while I contently admire her. We had to re-fill the tub as the water already cool down by the time we finished one round. It's been so long since we had sex.

"I didn't hurt you, right? Remind me to call the doctor tomorrow to check if it's actually okay to have sex."

"No way! You're not going to call the doctor to ask that!", she retorts.

"Ok, then should I go there just to ask?", I cock my brow at her.

"What?? Nooo. It's fine to have sex."

"And how do you know that?"

"I just know. And you can just google if you want to confirm.", she replies.

"I don't trust google, babe. Remember, it's a size of blueberry. We need to be careful."

I can't see her face now as her back is facing me, but I'm sure she's rolling her eyes now.

"If, my family insists to meet you. What should I do.", she asks.

"I guess I will have to meet them. Surely, you can't keep me hidden forever, babe."

"I know... I just... My family is difficult. I'm the blacksheep of the family."

"Wow, if you're considered the blacksheep, I'm scared to meet the rest of you. Will I need to send my clothes for dry cleaning? maybe get them sanitize too?", I made fun of her and successfully made her laugh.

"Try my family, babe. Not on Luke's side. He got the greener side of the grass. But one thing I can be sure of, no one would dare to have a say in my life. I promise you, whatever happens, we're in this together.", I try to reassure her.

"Thank you. I'm with you too, okay.", she gave me a chaste kiss on my lips before she got out from the tub.

—

After a quiet dinner, we laid down together on bed. I'm doing some writings for work while she's doing something on her phone.

Abruptly, she drops her phone on the bed as her phone rings.

"What's wrong?!", I asked her.
"It's Luke!"

"Okay, so? Pick it up.. I thought you saw a ghost..", not understanding her reaction.

"What should I say? I managed to avoid him the last 2 days saying I had lots of work to catch up. He's definitely calling to know what was I down with. I can't lie to him, he's a doctor!", she panics.

Her phone has stopped ringing and I put down my notebook and turn to her.

"Tiara, you won't be able to hide once your belly is showing. What do you get by delaying it? You need to tell him. Just like how you decide to just face it with your family, you have to do the same with Luke. He might gets angry but he won't hate you. He might hate me though, but who cares. Call him back.", I try to reason with her. The sooner Luke knows the better. I offered to talk to him but she refuse and wants to do it herself.

"Alright. Let's do this. Keep quiet okay.", she's summoning her courage while dialing back Luke's number. I played with her hair to calm her.

"Hey, Luke! Sorry I was in the bathroom.

Yeah, I'm fine now.

Mhm. Yup.

I don't know, maybe I've been too stress? But I'm ok now.

Tomorrow?! (her eyes snapped wide and her voice was a pitch higher)

Ohh yea yea sure. Let's meet up.

No no no. My house is in a mess. I've been sick and busy, remember? Let's go to The Morgan's.

Okay bye.", and she ends the call.

"You didn't tell him", I state the obvious.

"I can't tell him over the phone.", she gave excuse.

"And it didn't seem you plan to meet him if he hadn't suggest."

"I should have kicked you out before I made the call", she ran out of excuses.

"I'll do it tomorrow, if I don't, I let you do it.", and she surrenders. "Are you still working?", she asks.

I shake my head and opens my arm for her. She snuggles into my arm and wraps her arm on my belly. I kissed her forehead, "Sweet dreams, sweetheart."