ENDLESS

Seventeen

Jema's

Hanggang sa makapasok ako sa kwarto sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko.

Hindi ko maintindihan.

This is the first time I kiss her.
We kissed but she's the one who initiated it,this one is different I kiss her.

Intimately.

Yes Intimate, I can feel the intimacy in that kiss. Yung pakiramdam na hindi ko maexplain yung pakiramdam it's like a mix of emotion that makes me anxious.

Anything unfamiliar makes me anxious that's the crazy part of having an amnesia. Since your brain don't know what is it, it will give you a mix of signals that makes anxious.

"Jema." Halos mapatalon ako ng tinawag ako ni Deanna.

"Ahh bakit."

"Tara kain tayo."

"Haa?? Mauna kana."

"I bet you didn't have  breakfast pa, I was waiting for you I want to eat with you." Sobrang lumanay ng boses nya para akong matutunaw.

She's so sweet.

"Ahh, sige we--wait lang."

Ano ba Jema, calm yourself! Suway ko sa sarili ko.

Pag baba ko andun sya sa dinning table namin she's waiting for me.

She's all smile.

"Come." And she taps the chair next to hers.

I smile at her.

"Ahhh Deans, yung kahapon I don't know what happened .."

Namutla sya the fear and the sadness is written on her face instantly.

"Did you forgot about yesterday?" She asked

"Ahhh No, ibig ko sakin it was all my instincts, I followed my instinct and kissed you." I explained.

She smile sadly.

"My heart almost burst when you said you don't know what happened."

The sincerity in her voice hits different.

I smile at her. "Alam mo kahit di kita maalala parang paulit ulit parin kitang mamahalin. Hindi ka naman kasi mahirap mahalin."

Hinawakan nya kamay ko at nilapit it sa mukha nya.

"Ikaw lang ang una at huli kung mamahalin ng walang hanggan."

After namin kumain niyaya ako neto sa taas.

"Samahan mo ako may ipapakita ako sayo." Wika nya.

Dumating kami sa harap ng kwarto nya.

"Sa kwarto mo?" I said

Kung ano ano ang pumasok sa isip ko.

Are we gonna have sex?

Gagawin na ba namin yun?

Handa na ba ako?

Masakit kaya yun? Wait virgin pa ba ako? Teka diba asawa ko na sya so technically may nangyare na samin?

Teka bakit ba sex ang nasa isip ko?

Pano ba to di ako marunong.

"Hey Jema?!" Tawag nya sakin.

"Okay ka lang ba." She asked.

"Ahhh Deanna ano gagawin natin sa kwarto mo?" Nahihiya kong tanong.

She smile.