ENDLESS

five

Jessica's

I'm holding her hand and it brings me so much calmness and peace inside me.

Hindi ko talaga maintindihan bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko sakanya.

Paghanga pa ba to?

Tatay surprised me, pinakiusapan niya si Deanna na puntahan ako.

I really appreciate Tatay, gagawin niya talaga lahat para sakin. He's my super dad.

Buti nalang napapayag ni Tatay si Deanna kahit busy to, nakakahiya din kanina kasi bigla ko siyang niyakap tapos ngayon naman hawak hawak ko kamay niya.

I really hate hospitals mula nga magkasakit ako dito na ako halos tumira kaya feeling ko pag pumupunta ako rito I will stay longer again at ayaw ko noon.

"You okay?" She asked.

Did my heart just skip?

Bakit ba ganito to,the hell she's a woman it's impossible na magkagusto ka sa babae. Walang ganon woman are made for man.

"Yeah, just a little bit nervous, I hate this kind of thing."

"You'll be fine, your doing good pagaling ka ha." She said.

If you only knew, hindi na ako gagaling Deanna.

Nakakatitig siya sakin.

"Yeah.." i lost my words.

Her stare makes me lost on my own thoughts.

After my scan bumalik na kami sa room.

I can't help but to take a glance to her while she's texting on her phone.

"Yes you need something?" She asked

"Thank you ha for coming here  to see me, Idol talaga kita I don't know the first I saw you parang there's connection. You see I lost memories nung magkasakit ako,I want to ask this nagkakilala na ba tayo noon?  Did we met before?" I ask her.

Bakas ang pagkagulat sa mukha niya.

Tumingin siya kay Tatay and I don't know why.

"Nn--oo, we haven't met before, thank you for admiring me, you inspire me to play better pa." She said with a smile.

Parang bumigat pakiramdam ko.

Parang I got disappointed that she's not part of my past.

I don't know why pero I want her to be part of my life.

Few hours later dumating na yung results and it's still the same as before, the advice are the same as before bawal mastress, bawal mapagod, I need to protect my mind coz too much thinking will be very bad for my brain, baka maglead ito into anuerysm which is very fatal pag nagrupture na baka ikamatay ko..

Pinapauwi na din ako ng doctor tomorrow.

"Magpaalam kana kay Deanna kasi she needs to go na masyado na natin siya naaabala." Sabi sakin ni Tatay.

I feel sad.

"Can I see you again?" Imbes na magpaalam yun ang nasabi ko sakanya.

"Jessica, Deanna is a very busy pers--"

"Yeah sure, just contact me and if I'm not busy I'll meet you, we can be friends." Deanna said cutting what my father is saying.

My heart beats fast after hearing those from her.

"Hindi na kailangan yan Deanna." Tatay said at kinuha siya yung card na  binibigay ni Deanna."

Natahimik si Deanna at nagpaalam na ito.