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Intro

Jessica's

"Saan ka ba galing na bata ka ha? Kanina ka pa namin hinahanap."

Salubong sakin ni Nanay pag uwi ko.

I don't know how long I've been outside for them to got panic like that.

"Jan lang sa labas Nay."

"Ok ka lang ba?" Nanay asked

"Yeah, nagbreak na kami ni Kieth nakipagkita siya sakin para magkipaghiwalay." Dere derecho kung sabi as if it's a normal occurrence in my life.

Nanay hugged me. "Baka may mas better pa jan na nakalaan sayo anak. Ok lang yan."

"Alam mo nay it's wierd kasi I don't feel the pain, wala akong maramdaman diba dapat galit ako? Or nasasaktan ako? Diba dapat umiiyak ako?"

"Pero eto parang wala lang, abnormal nga siguro ako parang robot."

"Sabi ni Kieth, hindi niya daw maramdaman na mahal ko siya, pano ba kasi yung ginagawa ni hindi ko nga alam kung pano ba magmahal." I said in frustration.

"Ilan na ba ngayon? Si Kieth? Si... Si.. ahh hindi ko na maalala yung iba, it was erased by these stupid brain again." Yes bukod sa permanent memory loss ko or what they called Retrograde Amnesia, I have a mild anterograde amnesia too where in I tend to forget things that just happened to me like things that happen months ago or weeks ago depende sa kung anong gusto kalimutan ng utak ko.

In other words my brain is useless.

"Ano ba pinagsasabi mo Anak, normal ka take it easy on yourself, don't over think it's bad for you."

I stared at her. "I'm not normal Ma, I will never be normal."

"I'm lost in my ownself."

"Dayuhan ako sa sarili kung buhay. I have a permanent memory loss because of accident. I will never remember who I am."

"Anak, please relax." Nagaalalang sabi ni mama.

How can I be normal.

Nagising nalang ako isang araw sa isang lugar na hindi ko alam.

Hindi marunong maglakad, magsalita at hindi sila lahat kilala.

Nagising ako parang isang bata sa katawan ng isang dalaga.

Yung alam ko kung pano gawin yun pero di ko magawa.

Alam ko na kilala ko sila pero di ko sila maalala.

Alam ko kung pano makatayo pero hindi ko magawa.

Nagising nalang ako bigla na parang pinanganak ako ulit.

Sabi ni Tatay ako daw si Jessica, dati kaming taga Pilipinas pero lumipat kamu dito kasi nagkasakit ako.

Naaksidente ako sa Japan nung lumindol doon habang nasa bakasyon ako.

I finished studying Physiotherapy course but I never practice it.

I'm single.

Sinabi nila sakin yung mga basic information about me like my age, birthday, who are my siblings, some family relatives and stuffs.

After that I went into therapy for me to walk, talk, Eat alone and do basic activity of daily living kind of stuff.

They prefer to teach me Tagalog I don't know maybe because it's easier for me to learn it cause it was my language noon.

They enrolled me in a Arts school where I learned to paint. They enrolled me to photography too. Para daw kunan ko ng pictures or iguhit ko yung mga bagay na ayaw kung makalimutan.