silver of my soul

IT'S A CRAPPY BIRTHDAY

You help me my dear
With all my fears,
Your Whispering sweet nothings,
Into my ears,
Makes me feel something,
Calms me down ,stops my tears...
Bear with me my dear,
I know its messy,
Its not that clear,
All I know ,I need you here
Hold my hands,
To fight off my fears....
You soothe me ,my dear
Your voice is what I wanna hear,
When things are wrong,
I need you near... 
I am sorry my dear ,
If it's too much to bear,
But you are my beacon light ,
Which makes everything dark disappear....
                    - Mansi Gupta

(You can read the above poem after reading the chapter maybe will make more sense then.. Enjoy..)

BRIGHT'S POV

Everything was fine untill she came , why is she here? , okay maybe I am being an asshole but she fucking kissed win in front of me!!!, I was so sure of having a talk with win to ask him to give whatever is between us a try, but she ruined my every resolute, and now I am a sulking mess.

God... Is she his girlfriend he was talking to that day when his car broke, I have seen her at library too but win said she was just a friend now that I remember she was weirdly too close to him was he lying or thought it was none of my business. Is she the reason win didn't wanted to talk about the kiss we shared.
He is ashamed of what happened between us but he sure as hell didn't sounded that guilty on call yesterday, what should I do, I can't think of any better reasons.What are they?!!.

Was it all just in my head , Was I making it all up, the spark I felt was it just me? Now I am embarrassed, me being here must be awkward for win that's why he was so weird about giving me a hug like others.

"Hey bright what are you doing here win is going to cut the cake let's go to the center table "

"Yeah well it's not like I am in other room , I can see that and I can clap from here too rather than standing in the huddle around the birthday boy "

"Woah, cool down what happened to you all of a sudden "

"Nothing, I just don't want to get up from my chair I am too comfortable here and everyone will settle down once birthday song is over anyway, It might as well be now. "

" But it will look wrong you know? wins sister was so polite to call us here, don't you think sitting here and sulking would ruin her plan at least smile a bit"

Only if you knew my day is already ruined how can I smile!

"It's not like anybody will notice Mike, they are all busy in their talks"

"But-okay you look like you are going to tear my head off,so... Right! right !;it's my cue to stop talking and leave you to your self"

Finally!

"But still, getting jealous won't give you what you want"

Before I could actually choke him and ask what he meant he was on the other side, and is now talking with Earn pointing at my side ,this busybody!! he always wants to muddle in other peoples business!

"I thought you said you had a call to attend, is it done we are cutting the cake then it will be gifts time! " Earn said with enthusiasm.

"I - I don't think it's a nice idea, I changed my mind I won't sing ,just don't tell me to please, I am not in the mood"

"Hmm, I figured. you can give him just the complementary gift you bought then, no issues. Also Mike said you glued yourself to the chair, do you need me to call for help and ask everyone to pull you up? Or you can manage yourself and join us in the 'huddle around the birthday boy', hmm? " She quoted.
I tried to find humor in her words but there was none, she gave me a look which was enough to say she'll do what she said.