silver of my soul

OH MY GOD! I CAN'T REMEMBER

Where is this place why is it so dark I can hardly see anything. Where should I go 'somebody here? Can anyone hear me?' I am screaming but there's no response Where am I walking to, My eyes are adjusting to the darkness, I can see a door ,light is penetrating through it , I walk towards it but this feels wrong this light feels ominous. This door looks the only way to get out of this place. The closer I get the harder it feels to walk towards it as if something is pushing me back.After some resistance it stops.I somehow make it to the door too stund to make any other move, where the hell am I!
What is this door, this..this image it screams pure agony and suddenly I think I should go back stay in darkness forever but away away from this door.I feel something is tugging me towards it something is waiting for me to open this door, It terrifies me but I am more keen? Curious? To see what's behind this door despite my every nerve screaming to stop I lift my hand to push the door open and I hear it this voice this song again I stop my hand midway and cover my ears.This song .This tune stop! Stop!

STOP! I wake up screaming gasping for air, It was a dream just a dream I look around, where am I this is not my room not my bed I am panicking It's getting harder to breathe.

"Win, Win hey it's okay, it's okay you are okay you had a dream it was a dream, hey calm down I am here. You are safe " This person says hugging me tight and I feel safe my nerves starts to calm down my vision gets clear it's not another dream it's reality .

"You are okay, just calm down" He is still whispering and suddenly all my senses are active his voice, his scent, this warmth it's familiar.

"Bright? " I manage to say after a try Or two of just blowing air .

His body goes still his fingers stroking back of my head stops and slides to my neck thumbs on my cheekbones to hold me in place, he was on his knees on bed restricting my movement under the quilt his slippers on,clearly he rushed to me as soon as he heard me,my face buried in his chest, he bends down ,moves back just enough to look me in the eye. And a flash of relief washes through me, he is still searching my eyes concerned as if conforming I won't go under another panick attack, He lets a sigh of relief when he finds whatever he was searching for.
I don't know what's happening I was so terrified a minute ago and now I feel relieved, calm...safe.

But confusion seeps in sooner what the hell is he doing here?!

"I was so worried, thank God you are fine"

"Why.. Why am I here? Whose place is this? You....how?" I ask
He shifts and sits on bed legs touching the floor I shift back supporting my back to the wall. He is looking towards the window ,curtains are blocking the sunlight, lost in thought his hands are clutching the matress a little too tight.

"We are at my house , it's it's my room. I.. I don't know why were you at the old cathedral, I found you their unconscious"
Bright says his voice a whisper still not looking at me. Though I am not complaining his side view is as beautiful, God! Why does he have to look so good all the time!

He looks up turning his face towards me worry clear in his eyes , He asks
"How much do you remember?"
Oh yeah he asked me something what did he say cathedral... Unconscious... Fuck what the hell is wrong me!. I should be thinking.. I should be thinking about last night instead I was admiring this.. this... Sometimes annoying but undeniably handso- stop stop right there don't deviate from the main topic.Try and remember.. Try and remember what happened last night.

Flash back

I was with Alice, we were at this weird place the meet up yeah I was at the meetup of some cult, we were waiting in a room full of people some looking too tired to even stand, like they have lost several nights of sleep, they were more like the guards, some looked normal and excited to meet the head of this cult, we were all gathered in this huge room, once It looked rundown from outside but was well maintained from inside one can say it was a beautiful place in once, we weren't allowed to leave, Alice was blabbering something about trust and believe and Lord... I didn't pay attention to anything she was saying I was more interested to find this head who was taking too much time to appear.

There were drinks and food available on the open counter no one was interested in. I was getting impatient and Alice was busy talking to someone she knew, I excused myself saying I needed water of course bI knew better than To eat or drink anything from this place, I am already too suspicious , things here doesn't feel normal .I asked where the washroom was To a guard near the entrance of the room, he looks weirder from close but atleast not as worn out as others, I give my innocent smile indicating I wasn't upto anything wrong .

He looked sceptical "you can't leave" He said in a gruff voice.I understand But I really need to go it's an emergency,I have been holding it for so long,lord isn't here yet I don't want to piss myself when he comes ,you know ,it's not a good first impression, I have been waiting for this chance to meet him for so long,I don't wanna mess my chance. He looks undeterred , So being nice wasn't going to work I have to think about something else..

"Hey young men what's going on? " It was the women Alice introduced me to. What was her name again.
"You causing any trouble? " She asked sliding her fingers down my arm.
" Laura He wants to go to washroom and we are instructed to not let anyone out "
Laura! Yeah that's her name.

"Oh honey, can't you control a bit longer?" She asks me
"I am afraid no "
She keeps touching me.

"Come on jasper he is a nice guy, he won't cause any trouble I know him "

"But it's against my duty"
She moves closer to Jasper apparently and strokes his cheeks with her index finger , she is a walking seduction.

"Okay so here's the deal you accompany him to the washroom he might not know the way anyways and bring him back, without any trouble.you could do that right? "
Jasper gives a look of annoyance but nods anyway.

Laura gives a big smile and turns to me "Don't cause any trouble pretty boy , come back soon to me " She plays with my shirt collar and let's go, I give her my brightest smile and a nice Thank you.

Let's go Jasper I say still smiling. Laura leaves shortly.
"Don't call me that" He spits

"Ookaayyy, I won't"

"Follow me and if I think you are upto something you will have to face severe consequences" He says pointing his index finger at me in warning.

I followed him to the bathroom, he stands outside unfortunately there was no way out from there I take some time, flushed and came outside.
We were making our way back when I was thinking a way to get rid of him , I have to search this place maybe get their leader alone and make him talk.

There's no other way I have to knock him down , there is no one else here ,hallway is empty, not a single person no guards nothing, I don't understand why but good for me less people to deal with , good he doesn't have any weapon with him , if they had it would have made people sceptical of their motives. He is not that built I could easily weigh him down . I move closer he is walking in front of me, I grab his neck and stop the air flow enough to make him unconscious he struggles a bit then he slowly looses his consciousness. Hush...I drag him to near wall and let him sleep there peacefully. God I never done such kind of thing please forgive me...

I am sorry I did this to you Mr. Jasper hopefully you'll be conscious after sometime , I am really sorry so sorry, Thankyou for helping me to get out.

End of flash back

Okay that was really wrong thing to do atleast I had a decency to apologize.
But What happened after that, what did I do ?where did I go? Why was I unconscious?!

Bright is still looking at me. Waiting for me to answer.
This is the second time I have woken up in someone else's bed with no clear memory of what went wrong last night.
What am I going to say that I joined a cult, made some one unconscious, and I can't remember the rest?!..

"What...what were you doing there? " I ask instead.

He looks taken aback. He is biting his lips eyebrows are drawn closer in a furrow, he is definitely hiding something too.

"I.. I was "

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