silver of my soul

CIGARETTE TALK

BRIGHT'S POV

Win is eating happily .I was actually going to ask him to have dinner with me but I changed my mind after whatever happened when I was waiting for him and when I saw him coming from the door to our table I felt so happy I couldn't take my eyes of him he looks so good without taking any efforts ,my heart skipped a beat when his eyes was locked with me I felt a rush of adrenaline in me and a smile occurred on my face ,I waved at him but he didn't saw it I guess because he bumped into some girl of our university ,I could guess from her uniform ,she was pretty and was shyly talking to win , win even helped her with her books they shaked hands and were all smiles.
I felt a pang in my chest it stings ,I don't think win knew her but he was acting all so cool and caring for her ,she even dared to stop win by holding his hands and win didn't even looked irritated or slightly offended by it instead They even shared numbers ,I feel weird aching feeling ,I was thinking that I am in those few people having wins number it took me so much time to ask for it and here that girl who he just met has his number already.

I saved a seat beside me for him from the start so that he would sit with me I didn't know why I was pissed at the moment but when he sat beside me ,when his scent was lingering near me I felt relieved every feeling of discomfort was gone All I wanted was to talk to him ,he looked a little tired and as far as I know him I was sure he had skipped his meal.But he is denying it ,uff I don't know why is he so high of his pride.

If I will ask him for having dinner with me he would deny it so better not, but I wanted him to eat something so I waited until everyone went home cause I was in no mood to hear their stupid remarks.
But when I came back with food for him What I saw made my mood dull again , second time in just some hours another girl is clinging to win all over !!!!
And I can't stop but thinking about who she was.

"Who was she?"

I couldn't control myself from asking about that girl who was touching win at inappropriate places he didn't looked bothered by it though maybe she was his girlfriend he was talking with that night or someone he is seeing as of now.

I know it's none of my business but that girl was literally eye fucking win in front of me and after hearing what she said before leaving I felt as if someone slapt me on my face.

"Uhhh.... Just a...close friend"

Just a friend? Just a friend? Really!! Like friends with benefits ? What kind of friend behave like a slut!!
Ahh... Calm down bright it should not affect you this much its his life ,his 'friends' .

The way win said it felt like a question than an answer as if he himself doesn't know what they share. I don't like this feeling of....of..I don't know what ,it just doesn't feel good,not even a bit , its fucking bad ,very bad, awful!!!.

"Oh"
It was all I could say cause I was afraid I'll spill out everything that is going on in my mind.
I am not satisfied by his answer but seeing him eating like this is all so cute and adorable.
I couldn't help but smile.
Maybe he is just this good with everyone . I want to talk to him but I have no idea what to say,where to start with.
"Thanks for the meal bright ,I am also done for today I'll do the rest tomorrow ,are you going to stay? "

"N.."

"I think you should leave too there's no one here ,god this place looks so deserted all of sudden"

For the nth time He never lets me speak or atleast complete my word. Uhhh!!....

"Ofcourse silly it's there closing time ,I told them we'll leave once you are done eating"

"Oh. We we must go then , I'll pack my things you can leave first"

Oh shit I don't wanna go now I want some more time with him.I don't know what is wrong with me but I have never felt this way for anyone. The way i wanna touch win ,be with him ,kiss him? No no that's too far bright ! I shouldn't feel like this ,not for a boy atleast. The last time I checked I am attracted to girls only, I have never been attracted to any boy ever ,but win .win is different. The weird sensations that I have when I am with win I have never felt this way ever not even when I had my first orgasm with the hottest girl of college.
Especially I have never wanted to spend time with someone , never wanted to know anything about them I was never emotionally attached to any of my flings.
But I badly need to know win , spend time with him , think bright think something!!