Waves 18+

twnety three

I was sitting at Lucy's desk when I heard the door slam, she walked down the hall quickly and I folded my arms over my chest. "Mind telling me what the fuck that was about?"

"Why the fuck would you be friends with your old sub!"

"What?" She asked.

"I heard what you said to the fucking redhead."

"Sidney? What did I say to her that makes you think we ever...?"

"She said she knew about you being rough and you apologized."

"She wasn't talking about me. Her old domme almost killed her and I was supposed to pick her up that night but shit went down with Kim so I couldn't get to her. Her domme found my texts and almost killed her." I'm An idiot.

"I..."

"You got to stop assuming the worst from me." She stopped. "I'm very disappointed in you." I couldn't speak. "Go to bed. I'll be up later." She didn't even kiss me and I went upstairs. I got changed and felt like shit, I embarrassed her in front of all those people... oh God. I'm so disappointed in you. I pulled the blanket up over my head as I started to cry, my head and chest hurt equally. Twenty minutes or more passed and I held my breath as the door opened. "Kitten." I held in a sniffle. "Kitten." I heard her jeans hit the floor and I felt her slide into bed dip, after a few minutes I heard a sniffle and I let out a slow breath. Her arm wrap around me and she pulled me to her, I heard her sniffle again. She's crying...

"I'm sorry," I said quietly.

"No, I..." she held me tighter. "Just everything at the moment." I pulled away from her and sat up. I pulled her head over and she cuddled into my lap. "I need to get a secretary, and the club opening again, and tonight..."

"I'm sorry... I've missed some of my pills..."

"I'm sorry to Kitten. I shouldn't feel any less of a domme just because I love my sub." My stomach tingled. "I'm also trying really hard not to relapse."

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be." She shook her head.

"I'll be back in a second." I got up and went downstairs into her office, after a few seconds I found what I was looking for and I went back upstairs.

"What are you doing?" She asked. I grabbed the comforter off her and she sat up.

"Come here." She got up and we went out on her balcony, I laid the comforter on the lounger and gestured for her to sit. She sat down and opened her legs, I sat between them with my back to her chest. I grabbed her lighter from my pocket.

"Kitten it's cold." She said pulling up the overflow of the blanket wrapping it around us.

"If you relapsed it'd be my fault because I made you feel so shitty the last time you smoke weed."

"Ki-"

"Shush." I mumbled, I passed her the joint and lighter and she sighed.

"Dolly, if I relapsed it wouldn't be your fault. Don't you ever think that ok? I love you so much." She kissed my head.

"I love you too, a lot... and if it helps it helps."

"I don't deserve you." She hugged me.

"I don't deserve you." I mumbled. I laid my head against her chest and closed my eyes, after a few seconds I heard the flick of the lighter and then the smell crossed my nose. I hated it. But I loved her.

I woke to a phone ringing. "Hello?" Lucy said. "Yes... ok... ok... alright... bye." I turned over and she rubbed her eyes. "That was Chris-"

"Is Luca ok?"

"Yes, he's fine. But he's staying at his mom's till this evening."

"Why?" I asked.

"I don't know Kitten." She kissed me lightly and I sighed laying back on the pillow.