Identity Crisis

monday

Be with Nicole
Hang out with the popular (with us)
Get bad grades

Which day was probably worse than Monday, that's right, nobody.  I would love to go back to sleep and miss what was going on.  But I couldn't.  I had to hang out with Tim and the others.  I needed rest and myself sometimes, but Tim wanted me to do so much with his clique.

At the moment I lived alone with my parents in a small apartment.  I still had an older sister, but she moved out after an argument when I was twelve and I would visit her sometimes.

I wanted to avoid the attention because everyone would judge me.  One of Tim's friends complained about me because my perfume was only five euros.  I was in the flea market when I bought it.

Another problem with being popular was that there were so many rumors going around at school about someone.  It was then that the rumor was heard.  Now you were the rumor or one of them.  Before the identity crisis, I only knew Tim from hearing, but we didn't really have anything to do with each other.  I got goosebumps every time I walked into this Tim's house.  I hope I wasn't the only one feeling this way

The reason why I took part, or rather, had to take part, is that I stole a lot of money.  I wasn't as wealthy as the others, but the others didn't understand that.  My family had little money and didn't want to spend it.  I stole from them first, but there was a lot of money lying around at Tim's party.  I was terrified beyond words that this would come out.

Before the gaming club started, I was just the boring and uncool who thought too much about my future, but not a loser and I was happy about it.  I feel like being part of a clique can make you really popular and some girls even thought I was pretty.

I didn't want to keep my mind from sinking any deeper, so I checked my watch.  Already seven twenty!  I had to go slowly.  Since today was a sunny day, I decided to ride my bike.  I didn't want to sit in all the dirty places on the bus.  Some of Tim's friends even followed suit, but luckily they didn't live in my area.  I went to the garage and got my white bike.

>> Dan! <<, a female voice called out to me, >> I got up early so that I can finally ride my bike with you. <<
Who was that stupid girl now.  Annoyed, I turned around: It was Nicole.  Her makeup shimmered in the sun and her blonde hair had been curled.  She made her lips appear fuller and had a very thin nose.  She had an hourglass figure and she wore a cropped T-shirt with hot pants.  She was pretty, but not my type.

>> Why are you wearing that? << I laughed.
>> Because I'm hot, << she complained
>> In autumn? << I asked skeptically
"I wanted to impress you, Danny," she finally whispered.

Suddenly she came up to me and kissed me hard.  It was so disgusting and I hated it.  After what felt like hours, she let go of me and I wiped away all the drool.

Nicole was a beautiful girl, but she didn't have that certain something to fall in love with.  She clung to you and couldn't kiss a lot.  I always compared her to Rikki.

Her rebellious nature always made her so unique and it would be very exciting if the two of us could be together.  That was exactly why I sent her this video with Claire and Liam.  So she broke up with him and took me.  Rikki and I didn't really have much to do with each other and she never paid any attention to me.

Finally we rode bicycles and got to school in twenty minutes.
There Tim and Bella came with a couple of his friends and a couple of other girls.
>> Heyy Dan, how are you! << shouted Tim and gave me a high five.  I hit and tried to act like a popular boy and not attract negative attention.
>> We want to go to the nightclub at half past ten today.  Come with us. << said Bella.
>> Yes, that would be great. <<, agreed a friend of hers.

To the night club?  They can't be serious!  I wanted to step out of the identity crisis.  I couldn't do anything else.  I definitely didn't pull off a number like that and there was enough drama on Wednesday.

>> Yes, of course, I just have to talk to Tim alone one more time. <<
I kidnapped him to a corner where we could be alone.
"Do I really have to go to this nightclub?" I asked.
Tim nodded with a wry smile.
>> But my parents are still awake at this time.  Besides, I've never been out alone at this time. <<
>> Then come up with something. << suggested Tim.  He stayed cool and it didn't upset him.  I had the urge to provoke him because he did this to me.  >> We will meet in front of the bus stop and I will give you your fake IDs. <<

>> I'm getting out.  I don't want to be in the gaming club any longer. <<
His eyes were dark and his mouth was open
>> Unfortunately you have to stay here.  Otherwise there is unfortunately less competition and while you are already here.  Grab your money. <<
I sighed.  In games, I automatically gave everything, whether I wanted it or not, and I believed Tim had noticed.

After that, I had chemistry and was very scared.  We did a job last week and I was very good at it.  The problem was the gaming club.  I should write lower grades.  Teacher passed out the papers and I took mine.  Oh holy shit.  I had a five.  I put my hand over my mouth and couldn't believe it.  What would my parents say about that?

Immediately after the break, Tim asked me what I had and even wanted to see if I was really telling him the truth.  What I also found annoying were the comments from all of his friends.  They either laughed or cheered.  I found this behavior very unusual and strange.  I think most of them were used to it.