Way Back When (Elizabeth. O)

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Elizabeth's POV:

Costume Design Studio

She's goes about her business for a while. She measures my entire body including my rise; my hips and other areas like my arms and my waist. Apart from when she mumbles something and jots it down in her notepad, she hasn't said anything. Every now and then she'll brush my legs or my skin with her knuckles and my heart will skip a beat.

She's still the same person. Still the same style and the same look. The wavy, curly brunette hair with the silver part. The scar above her eye obviously hasn't changed. Her soft movements gives her the same grace as a swan.

It's cute, even being this close to her. It hurts that she's not acknowledging me. We were always so close, and now I bet she can't stand to be near me. The tension in this room is so high and you could probably cut it like a hot knife through butter. Eventually it gets to a point where I can't bear the silence a moment longer.

"Mia, please speak to me." I say lightly, barely audible. She doesn't look at me, she looks at the tape near the joint at the bottom of my leg. She shakes her head a little as she puts the number on the page.

"What would you like me to say, Elizabeth?" She asks as she leans over her desk and grabs a better pen from the mug on her desk. University Of Stanford. What? I knew she was smart but I wonder what her degree was?

"What happened to Lizzie, or Liz, or Ellie?" I say, feeling sad that she's calling me by my full name. I can't remember the last time she called me Elizabeth. Ever since I met her, it's been Liz, Lizzie or Ellie, and not hearing them is really hard.

"What happened? I don't know, what happened to us?" She says, standing up and looking me in the eyes. They're the same eyes I remember, but they're not filled with the happiness that they used to hold. They're empty and sad and I know that it's me that made them that way.

"I know I hurt you, and what I did was silly..."

"Silly? No, it wasn't silly. It was stupid. And it wasn't a mistake, you left me. I don't mind that you left, you could have gone anywhere in the world and I would have supported you. What bothered me was that you didn't say goodbye. We went from being in love, to being strangers." She says. She's conflicted because I can sense that she's sad and angry but it feels like there's something else there.

"I know I messed up. But I was immature and I was silly. But it was a mistake, believe me, Mia, hurting you was the last thing I'd ever want to do." I say, feeling myself get emotional. A tear threatens to brink my eyelids and I quickly wipe it. I hate being like this. All I want to do is hug her, and take all the pain away. I'd do anything I could to go back. Back to us, but I can't.

"But you did Elizabeth, and you might not have wanted to to but you did. And you can't just walk back into my life and act like nothing happened. You were the first person I ever loved, the first person I ever gave my heart to, and as it turns out you were the first to break it." She says, and it feels like someone is repeatedly stabbing away at my heart. My emotions are getting the better of me. A tear breaches my eyes and trickles down my cheek.

"I know, Mia. And I want you to know that I loved you. I never stopped loving you, and the only thing I can do about it is say I'm sorry and mean it. Mia, you're the only person that's ever been able to understand me. So understand me when I say I'd give anything to go back, and no matter what you say, just know I loved you." I notice a tear roll down her cheek and her bottom lip tremors as I speak.