Way Back When (Elizabeth. O)

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Mia's POV:

Home

I didn't really know what came over me. I just, I let the feelings I had bottled up get the better of me. And we'll... I hope I made the right choice letting them out. I know that she loves me and all, and I think I love her too. But I'm not sure if I'm ready to trust her again, I'm just going to think that she's always out doing something to sabotage us. I don't know if it's even fair to her, because I'd have these trust issues that I couldn't avoid.

After I asked her out I was somewhat relieved that I'd gotten this off my chest.

I went home and got into the shower before making myself some dinner. By dinner I mean some over fries and some chicken strips. Lazy I know. I would normally cook, I love cooking but I just didn't have the energy to make anything else. I sat down with a glass of wine and watched a really great film while I ate. I watched this really cool movie about people who have to find another planet because earth is now inhabitable. I think it was called Interstellar.

Then when the movie ends, my mind starts to wander. Specifically the fact that I don't even know what I'm going to do. I know I asked her out but I don't even know what I'm going to do about it. Do we go to a restaurant? Do I take her to the movies? This is always a little awkward. I'd never have thought that I would be nervous about taking Lizzie out.

I eventually fall asleep on the couch, my plate in my lap and the tv still playing. I woke up the next day in a slump, my back hunched over. I hopped in the shower and went to get ready. I just put one some black jeans and a black tee, because I knew that filming was starting and I would be needed more, but also less than I was before. If that makes any sense.

I just sort of walk around, watching the actress's and actors do scenes until it's time for a costume change which, in a superhero movie, doesn't happen very often as most of the time their in suits or wearing CGI suits. I take my car to work before parking it up and going into my office. I say hello to a few colleagues before going into my office.

To forget about Lizzie I occupy myself with my work, and for a while it works. It works until I hear a knock on my door which pulls me out of my books and scripts.

"Come in." I say and close the folder; putting my pen on top. I look over to the door and see Scarlett poking her head around the corner and smiling when she sees me. "Hey Scarlett, what's up?"

"Erm, not much. I just wanted to know how you're doing. I know it's probably hard seeing Lizzie again. And I know you don't really speak to you're mom anymore..."

"Please, don't do that." I say, not liking what she's trying to get at. She knows that my speaking about my mother is a sensitive topic.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. But I just wanted to make sure that you were okay." Her eyes are soft and genuine and I can see that she means the best, I'm just not fond of talking about my mom.

"I'm fine, Scarlett really." I say, but it's not convincing and she can tell that I'm not being completely truthful.

"Mia you are an awful liar. Look, I know the reason you two broke up. And... what she did to you." She says and takes a seat opposite me, in the chair opposite my desk. She folds her legs and crosses her arms, making herself look like a psychologist or a therapist or something. I find it quite amusing.

"Look, I'm over it. And quite frankly it doesn't bother me anymore." I say, and yet again she can tell that I'm not being straight with her. I think it's partly to do with me being a bad liar and her being good at telling the signs that someone is lying.