On the Ice

night with out you

Part 5 (thank you to Vicky! haha she came up with this idea since my brain is fried haha) 

the day went by faster than expected, everyone had went to their dorms to sleep while I stayed up sitting on my bed. I had already changed into shorts with Dean's shirt while I was trying to listen to Dean's mixtape but I could feel my chest tightening, it was starting to get harder to breath and I knew what was coming.. I was about to have a panic attack I felt sick to my stomach as I took off my headphones throwing them on my bed standing up I was trying so hard to catch my breath but it felt as if my air way was being constricted. My heart rate was picking up an I knew I needed to get to Dean's dorm, I opened the door to my dorm and started sped walking down the hall but I felt so light headed from the lack of air that i was receiving.

I was almost there when I crashed hard into someone's chest which as you could imagine didn't help me one bit. I was already unsteady as I walked so that impacted knocked me onto the ground, I put my head in my hands as I was started to cry. I felt like I was seconds from passing out

??- Dakota, what's wrong?! Dakota hey..

the person removed my hands from my head as I recognized the voice, it was Adam's. I looked at his face an it had a look of panic and concern written all over it.. I was wheezing so bad that I started to seeing spots

A- hey Dakota I need you to try an breath okay? can you do that for me?

I couldn't even respond, when i tried nothing came out. he seemed to catch on an carefully held out his arms as if he was asking for a hug

A- can I hug you?

I nodded as the tightening feeling was getting worse, he wrapped his arms around me carefully pulling me in his chest as his hand found my hair carefully playing with it while his other hand rested on my middle back rubbing circles into it

A- can you hear my breathing? you don't have to answer.. only nod

that I listened and nodded 'yes' to him

A- okay.. try to copy my breathing, like the mimicking game. do it for me..

I complied to what he had said an did as he said, I started to try an copy his breathing not failing to hear his increase in heart race as I did so. I eventually started regaining my normal breathing pace making him let out a sigh in relief.. we stayed like this neither of us moving even when my breathing became normal an the feeling in my body went away. he was the first to pull away an look at me as I wiped away the remainder of the tears that rested on my face

A- can I ask what just happened?

D- a panic attack.. I um have separation anxiety from Dean so I get them when I'm away from him.. I know it's stupid

he carefully held onto my hand clearly trying to be caution since I did just come off from having a panic attack

A- it's not stupid.. when my um mom was still around I was attached to the hip to her, even cried when she went to the bathroom, when she uh left I started to have panic attacks myself, my dad never understood or tried to help me so I just uh learned to help myself

I took in every word he said, i gave his hand a slight squeeze to show reassure which he smiled his charming smile at me

D- thank you for helping me.. an for telling me about that, I know it isn't easy

A- anytime, you might wanna get some sleep we have a long day ahead of us tomorrow

he stood up first before helping me up, he even walked me to my dorm which caused me to blush

D- say why were you out of your dorm this late anyways?

he chuckled as we got to my door

A- Guy kept snoring an Charlie kept talking in his sleep, needed a break 

I laughed quietly at that making sure not to be too loud

A- well see you tomorrow D, sleep well!

he started walking away but I stopped him

D- D?

I heard him chuckle as he turned to face me still walking backwards

A- it's your new nickname, since you call me Banks!

I felt my face get even warmer as he turned back around and walked off. I opened the door an walked in right as the lights flicked on Julie an Connie both looking at me with grins

D- um hey?

Co- you have to tell us everything!

she grabbed my wrist yanking me onto my bed as they sat down

J- tell us who you were sneaking out to see

D- I wasn't sneaking out to see anyone

they both looked at each other smirking before looking back at me

Co- no need to hide it just tell us!

I sighed knowing they weren't gonna let this go

D- I was having a panic attack so I was going to see my brother but ran into Adam along the way so he helped me out that's all

they both than squealed an I swear my hearing was gone by the end of it, they were chattering this song as they kept saying this ship name as they called it "Aakota" 

D- Aakota???

they both looked at me with even bigger grins

J+Co- it's yours and Adam's ship name!!

oh our ship name... WAIT WHAT