ALL BARK NO BITE | SADISTIC BEAUTY SPINOFF

Chapter 71

(Spoiler and Trigger warning in comment:-)

~ Radisson Plaza Hotel, 23 Taepyeong-ro 2-ga, Jung-gu, Seoul

Minho tingled with delight, composing himself before he went back into the party. He looked at Wookyung walking back out, confident and content, he did sense his letdown when he said he couldn't go back out with him. And he knew it made sense but it was a lot all at once and even though Wookyung might be upset now, he's ultimately going to make it up to him once he moves in with him. He... did do it for him... for himself too but mostly for Wookyung. Seeing Wookyung made him so happy yet guilty about how he had been going on about everything.  

He really couldn't shake off the guilt...

He looked back at the party, deep in thought. He saw Eunyoung winding between the crowd, smiling and greeting the many people she knew. Minho leaned back against the wall... he was mistreating her by his cowardice... she had done everything for him, even when he wasn't being his best or his most honest with her. That took courage too. And he was just taking it for granted by constantly keeping her in the dark. Eunyoung... was going to know sooner or later. Wookyung was well known and if they were to get together...

The people who ought to know would understand... Eunyoung being one of them. She would be so hurt to connect it all later on instead of hearing it from his own mouth. Of course, she might get upset... even get mad at him, he deserved it, but at least he wouldn't have cared any less for her. Like he was doing right now. He had been so caught up in his own misfortune, anxieties and comfort that he forgot to be a good friend to Eunyoung... a good lover to Wookyung, a good employee to Mr Wang... a good brother to Minhyuk. 

He had to make everything right and he had to start somewhere... Minho took a deep breath, taking his phone out and clicking it open. He went down to Eunyoung's contact, recording a voice message for her "Hey... I know this conversation will be hard to have... so I'm sending you this message so that I don't chicken out later..." he said, trying to breathe steadier as his heart began pacing "I haven't been entirely honest with you about a lot of things" his fingers trembled on the cell phone as his mind tried to override the consequences, screaming expletives at him but he ignored it, he ignored himself for her.

It was high time.

"I have to tell you some important things tonight... I will tell you everything... I promise. About how I have been feeling... why I have been acting strange... about my work... about the bruises... about exactly why I moved in with you... I have been keeping things for so long but believe me Eunyoung... I really never meant to hurt and I wanted to keep you safe... from things that are disagreeable about me... things that took me long to accept. I am... not normal and that's not your fault... so I won't keep you in the dark any longer and if that means you don't want me around anymore, I'll be okay with that too. I just want you to be happy... I have always loved you, Eunyoung"

He stopped the recording and pressed send before he could even think about it, his head hurting with the invasive thoughts, all shouting about how he'll be isolated without her, and how abnormal it would be for him to not be in love with her, how he's letting everyone down, how he's letting her down. The tears came surging back up to him but he fought them, he was going to be brave and put people first instead of running away. Otherwise... if he kept running this way... he'll be all alone in the end.

He unclenched his jaw after a while and relaxed the muscles in his back. Taking deep breaths as he calmed down, he felt a wave of relief wash over him as he realised what he'd done. He was ready to tell Eunyoung the truth, the thing was out of his hands now and he'll just keep this up until he can make it up to everyone. He shook himself, getting into the spirit of the party and walking back in, a nervous smile on his face. "Drinks?" a waiter passed by him and Minho opted for a small, sweet cocktail which he didn't know the name of.