it's you//2jin

forty

"heeejinnnn" soojin dragged as she walks towards me at freaking 7.30am in the morning.

i put on a poker face and just pretended i didn't hear her because i had my airpods in and i turned the volume of my music louder.

she just went to her seat and sat down as she took out her pencil case and her notebook, preparing for the first lesson.

i lay my head on the table and slept and i didn't know that the teacher already came in.

after a few minutes, i suddenly woke up and i looked around the class and took out my airpods. i used my palms to cover my face and sighed.

"what's wrong?" soojin asked.

"hm? nothing." i said as i removed my hands off my face.

"mm you sure?" she asked again.

"yeah yeah. just pay attention." i said as i pointed to the board and soojin nodded and faced the board and started copying down the notes and answers to the worksheet.

i went back to sleep not paying attention to class because i was just so damn tired because guess what your girl cried herself to sleep yesterday night after her girlfriend fell asleep.

lunch

"heejin, are you.. okay?" hyejoo asks with a soft tone which made me chuckle lightly.

"why wouldn't i be?" i replied.

"your eyes, it's puffy." yerim said and pointed to my eyes.

"oh that? it's fine. i think just some dust so i rubbed my eyes and now it's puffy." i said and they frowned.

"why? y'all don't believe me?" i chuckled and they shook their heads.

"relax buddies, im okay, really, i am." the four of them nodded their heads hesitantly and we slowly made our way to the canteen.

"wanna go to pc bang after school?" sooyoung asks and i shook my head.

"whyyy, you never reject going to the pc bang! what's different today?" yerim whined.

"just wanted to rest, im tired and exams are over which gives me more time to sleep." i said and jinsoul just shook her head and looks at me with a worried look.

i guess she might know since she knows me since young.

"hey im gonna go to the toilet first." jinsoul said and walked past me, whispering, "follow me."

"yeah i need to go to the toilet too." i said and ran to jinsoul.

"so what is going on with you?" jinsoul said and put her arms around my shoulder.

"nothing."

"don't tell me nothing, i knew you since we were born." jinsoul replied.

"okay so like, um, hyunjin got jealous and mad yesterday because i guess i was too close to soojin and she said i gave more attention to soojin than her, so i decided to go to the mall to get some things for her because i felt sorry," i explained, "then when i came home, i heard her talking on the phone with chanhee, about our relationship and chanhee asked if she wanted to break up with me but hyunjin just said those sweet things about me like how she loves me a lot and will never leave me and will do anything for me so i felt even more sorry," i continued, "and in the end i cried myself to sleep."

"damn, so y'all fought?"

"i guess you could say that." i replied and sighed.

"well it's technically understandable because it's true that you put in way too much attention in soojin, even i can see that. im not even your girlfriend or whatever but i can see that you give soojin too much attention."

"oh, damn, guess i really did hurt her." i said.

"yeah you did."

"oh by the way, guess what ms oh said when i went to her shop to buy flowers again." i said. jinsoul and i used to always go to her shop to get flowers for our girlfriends. sometimes for special occasions, sometimes to say sorry and sometimes just for fun.

"what?"

"she asked if i bought the flowers for jiwon." i said and chuckled.

"dude." jinsoul stared at me as she removed her hands from my shoulder.

"i can't visit her anyways, because i know that i would literally break into pieces when i see her." i said and jinsoul looked at me with pity.

"damn you've really been through a lot huh." jinsoul said and held my hand.

"what the fuck soul?" i said as i removed my hand and she held my hand again.

"can you stop holding my hands, my hands are only for hyunjin." i said and jinsoul rolled her eye and pushed my head.

"ouch, bastard." i said and hit her back. she looks at me and cracks her knuckles. bye im so dead.

"okay sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry soul, sorry." i apologised and ran away towards the direction of the canteen with her chasing behind me.

i saw my girlfriend and pulled her in front of my while i hide behind her.

"save me save me save me. jinsoul is gonna kill me." i said and jinsoul came towards us.

"hi hyun, give me your girlfriend for awhile please." jinsoul said and hyunjin looks at me and then back to jinsoul.

"no please no love, no." i begged hyunjin and she held my hands and looked at jinsoul.

"here." she said and pushed me towards jinsoul and walked away. surprisingly, jinsoul didn't do anything but frown at hyunjin.

"what the fuck? she didn't even protect you.." jinsoul said and i just nodded, faking a smile because damn i am hurt now.

"it's fine. whatever." i said and walked away as i put in my airpods to block out all the surrounding sounds. i don't wanna know what's going on anymore.

i don't wanna do anything anymore. i just want to be away from everyone but yet at the same time i don't. i just want someone to talk to, but there's no one i can talk to.

hyunjin ignoring me, my friends busy with their girlfriends, if i talk to soojin, hyunjin would be jealous. what the fuck can i even do now.

i should just die.