it's you//2jin

forty one

back to the phase where jiwon was hurt last time. it's all like déjà vu now.

FLASHBACK

"wonnie." i called out to jiwon as she walks towards me.

"hi." she simply said and just sat beside me.

"what's wrong baby?" i asked and she just shook her head.

"hey, you know you can tell me anything right?"

"yeah. im fine, really." she said and i didn't wanna force information out of her so i decided to stop questioning.

skips to few years later

'the number you have dialed is currently unavailable, please try again aft-' this is the 10th time im calling her and she's still not picking up.

DING

my notification rang, i quickly picked up my phone and it was a notification from jiwon.

'i love you so much heejin. i love you a lot and im sorry. i cant take it anymore, im so frustrated with everything's that's going on, my dad has been abusing my mom because she raised me to become a lesbian. what can i do? i should just leave this world so no one would have anymore worries and i'll leave the heavy burden off my family's back. i just want you to know that, im always by your side and i will always love you no matter what. go find someone else who can give you the world which i am sincerely sorry i couldn't. i love you a lot heejin and i hope you live a happy life.'

what the fuck-

i dialed her phone number again but it didn't go through.

"jiwon.. pick up.. please.." tears started to fall and my voice started to crack as i kept calling jiwon.

suddenly, jiwon's mother called.

jiwon's mother
me

"heejin ah.."

"what happened, ms park, what happened!"

"jiwon is found dead on her bedroom floor.. with a knife stabbed into her heart.."

"WHAT?!" now it's my heart getting stabbed by a knife.

END OF FLASHBACK

i want to kill myself, i really do. i thought hyunjin being my girlfriend would cure everything. like me longing for her to come back, me getting over her. she did. but she brought the trauma back again.

but goddamn i love her so fucking much.

i didn't have an appetite to eat anymore so i didnt eat. hyunjin went to chanhee's friend group and hung out with them. how long is she gonna be mad. im hurt too.

hyunjin pov

damn i should've protected heejin but what can i do, im still mad at her.

"hey, what are you so deep in thought about?" chanhee asked as he snaps his fingers in front of my face.

"nothing.."

"yeah sure nothing, what's going on?" chanhee asked.

"i don't know, all of a sudden, im mad at heejin, im hurt by heejin's action, but what im doing is also hurting her."

"why are you mad at her then?" chanhee ask and i shrugged my shoulders.

"im going back to class first." i said and walked away. suddenly i felt someone hugged me from the back.

"what the fuck." i cursed and turned around to see who it was. it was heejin.

"hey." she said and let go of me.

"hi." i simply said and walked away.

"how long are you gonna be mad at me? heejin asks and held my hands. damn i miss her warmth.

"2 minutes. just wait." i said and we went to her class cause her class barely has anyone during lunch.

"2 minutes is up." heejin said and i sat on her seat and tap my lap. she sat on my lap and i wrap my arms around her waist and lean my head on her chin.

"im sorry." i whispered into her ears and she looks at me and frowned.

"yeah you better be. i don't even know what i did wrong. i said i was sorry." heejin replied and punched my shoulder

"what the hell, that punch is strong bruh." i said, holding my shoulder.

"anyways, im sorry." i apologised again and peck her lips.

"fine, i'll accept your apology." heejin said.

"yay!" i cheered and hugged her again.

"stop letting your jealousy get over you." heejin warned and i just nodded.

she took out her phone and went to the instagram story and looked for some filters.

she started taking pictures with me and videos of us.

"BRO THIS FILTER!" heejin shouted as she laughs at how funny i looked with the filter.

"shut up, look at you." i said and pushed her hands away so that the camera will be facing her. after we saw how heejin looked like with the filter, both of us broke out in laughter.

"woah relax." soojin said as she walked towards us. what the hell.

"sorry to disturb your moment, im just here to grab my things." soojin said and took her portable charger out of her bag and walks out of the class.

"that was random, anywaysss," heejin said, "i love you babe."

"that was random too but i love you more princess." i said and heejin leaned in and peck me lips. damn i love her so much.