Letting Go

Chapter Eighteen

There he was, right in front of me. So close yet so far apart. For a moment I thought that just maybe he would come over to me, if not to say hello then at least share a smile. What changed? Why this sudden behaviour? Yes I get it. We broke up but why can't we be friends? We are both going through hell, why can't we be there for each other. Help each other through. I feel like I'm about to burst into painful sobs.

Not in front of him Jenna. Don't you dare cry in front of him. I chanted to myself. Before either of us could react my book slipped from my hands but was caught by a familiar male who I assume was standing behind me.

Aaron.

"Hey" he said in a husky out of breath voice. "H..hey" I stammered shocked by his sudden appearance.

"So what are you up to?" He asked not affected by my stuttering. He came to a standstill directly in front of me, blocking my view of Spencer.

"Well it is a bookstore, what do you think?" I asked slightly annoyed that he had ruined my moment with Spencer. I peeked over his shoulder to see Spencer's back turned and ready to leave the store.

Gosh! What is wrong with me?

"Right. Sorry, so.." I heard Aaron chuckle. Why is he still here? Doesn't he understand the definition of space?

I turned back to him.

"Look.."

"Jenna I.." We both started.

"Look Jenna, I know you said you needed time and I get that and I'm not asking you to be my girlfriend."

Really? Did he not just ask me to be his girlfriend yesterday?

"I mean, I would like you to be my girlfriend but right now I'm just asking you to.." He continued.

"Aaron.." I began but he interrupted again.

"Jenna, all I'm asking is that you go with me to prom."

Oh.

"So?" That wouldn't be that bad, right? He's not asking me to be his girlfriend.

"Yeah, that would be great thanks." I said and offered him a small smile. When I looked at him I saw a massive grin plastered on his face.
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Today was Monday, four days until prom and I'm freaking out. When I got home from the mall on Saturday I found my mom in the kitchen and told her all about my day. She was slightly confused when I told her about the whole Aaron thing but didn't question it.

I sat in my room researching possible dresses to buy from either River Island or Forever 21 depending on what look I was going for.

I wasn't sure if I were to go with trendy and hip, Forever 21 or smart and classy, River Island. Violet and I plan to go to the mall after school today to find the perfect dress. Violet, unlike my mother was hardly surprised that I had said yes to Aaron in fact she was glad that I was trying to get over Spencer.

But did I even want to get over him? Part of me wants him back but another part is furious at him. He got so angry at the Jazz concert the other night, I'm sure he'll be just as mad when he sees Aaron is my date. But who cares what he thinks, not this girl right here!

How dare he get mad at me for trying to move on when he ungraciously broke up with me? If it’s anyone's fault that I'm with Aaron, its Spencer's! Okay that's not exactly true. Yes Spencer broke up with me but I was the one who said yes to going with Aaron to prom, I could've said no but I was more worried about not having a date.

"Hey Jen, you okay? You look like you're about to barf." Violet asked me as we began our walk to the parking lot.

"Yeah, I'm fine" I replied getting into the passenger side of Violet's car.