Letting Go

Chapter Thirteen

Caitlin's dad sped down the streets hardly caring about the red lights that were an indication to stop. He was obviously more concerned about his daughter and what was happening back at the hospital.

We briskly walked to the ER where Caitlin was being held. When we walked into the room Spencer's mom wrapped her arms around him, soaking his shirt with her tears.

"It’s gonna be okay, she's gonna be okay" he whispered in his mother's ear.

This didn't comfort her much probably because that is most likely the same thing the nurses and counsellors told her. You can only be told something a certain amount of times before it starts to mean nothing to you.

Their dad stood talking to the nurse with an anxious expression on his face. "So you're saying..." He couldn't finish his sentence.

"Yes sir. I'm sorry" she said with a sympathetic expression.

"But you and your wife might want to consider taking her to a hospice. There she can get 24/7 care and love she needs and it has a homey feel." The nurse said.

The Jamaican woman from the other day walked swiftly towards us. "Sahara I was just telling Mr Lachowski that he should consider.." She began but Sahara interrupted her.

"Unfortunately that is no longer an option. You see, the cancer has now spread throughout the body and we will have to keep her here for monitoring."

Spencer's mom pulled away to respond to the nurse.

"Is it honestly that serious?" She asked red face and eyes puffy. The nurse nodded

"Unfortunately yes" she said and walked away. Her mom turned to her husband and crumbled in his arms. Spencer stood there expressionless staring at the black and white checked, marble floor. I reached out to comfort him but he didn't move an inch. He looked so helpless. We all were helpless; there was nothing more to do. Nothing could make this better.
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My mom came to fetch me later that evening after sitting in the waiting room for just over an hour. The doctors were really strict on visitors; family only, but because Mrs Lachowski had pleaded with them they allowed me to visit but only for 5 minutes. After that I went back to the waiting room but her family stayed in the room trying to soak up every last minute they had with her.

“Hey gurl, how are you feeling?” I said to Caitlin trying to act as normal as possible.

“Like crap” she said honestly. I let out a small chuckle and took her hand in mine.

“I just want to let you know how much I love you Caitlin. I don’t care who I fall in love with you are my soulmate.” I said offering her a smile which she returned as best she could.

“You’re my soulmate too” she replied.

“You understand me better than anyone else in the whole world. You’re the one I want to share all my secrets with. You are the most caring and compassionate person I know and I have no idea how I will survive without you, but I’ll do it. I’ll live my life to the fullest for you.” I said tears running down my face. I hugged her one last time before the nurse told me it was time to leave.

“I love you” she whispered one more time.

“I love you too” I said smiling down at her.

“See you soon Jen” she said as I stepped out the doorway.

My mom wrapped her arms around me as I walked up to her whispering "It’s okay" into my hair. Mr Lachowski came out just as we were on our way out.