I Have you (H.S Vampire)

Chapter 18:

Chapter 18:

(Ellie's POV)

What hurt the most was him hurting.

I had to watch him discover this new pain which was all created by fake discretions. If he knew that I was lying to stay safe, if he understood my reasoning, maybe we can try again. Still ... He thinks im dead now. I walked slowly through the path to my aunt's crying softly. This wasn't how it was supposed to be. I am meant to be with Harry right now not alone in solitude. I felt my heart and I could feel it beating its broken self down. I lied to him, I promised him that I would never lie to him.

*Flash back *

"I said it to protect you" he shouted. We were in my room arguing about him being a vampire.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked but came out more like shouting.

"Why didn't you tell me you were a witch?" He said creating another argument.

"Because I knew it wouldn't affect the relationship as much" I explained. This meant he had nothing to fall back on

"So ...?" I asked with attitude waiting for a response.

"You can't just introduce yourself with 'hey I'm harry and I'm a vampire call me sometime when your free' it's not the best pickup line" he explained sarcastically

"This is serious though, you can't lie about stuff like this" I said folding my arms.

"Would you? If you were in my position?" He said trying to turn the tables around.

"I would of, I promise right here and right now that I would never lie to you or anyone" I said putting one hand on my heart. He looked down looking defeated.

"So where does this leave us now?" He asked putting his hands in his pocket's.

"I don't know" I said putting my hands in my back pockets. I looked into his eyes and felt a pull, not just of a sexual tension but a pull of us, together, it felt somehow right. I walked over to him and him to me at the same time and pushed our lips and ourselves onto each other.

*Flash back over*

I walked to the graveyard to go and see my dad's grave. When I got to the right one, the blue roses had slightly died and it was dark out so it wasn't clear of what was on the gravestone.

"Hey dad, it's me Ellie" I said hoping his ghost might appear but nothing did. I stood in front of it and looked down with my eyes letting out every tear.

"I know we weren't on the best terms when you died, I was being rebellious and you were only being a parent." I said before coughing more tears out.

"But I miss you" I said wiping away the tears with the sleeve of my jacket.

"And I feel like I'm loosing a bit of myself everyday" I said kneeling down.

"I'm lying, I'm hurting people to protect them from the small issues, I'm becoming the person I don't want to be" I said picking up a daisy and putting it on top of his grave.

"And I'm scared of what that'll become" I said again wiping away the tears. I spoke to the grave as if it were my diary. I looked around the graveyard to seen if anyone else was there; Luckily I saw no one.

"I feel like a crazy person all the time and mum just thinks it is the move again" I said feeling like I have to explain every detail.

"I should be at aunt Fay, I remember how you used to hate visit her because she had a no supernatural rule in the house" I said letting out the end of my tears.

"So I should be going" I said before getting up. I looked down a moment and blew a kiss before leaving. It does hurt me that he is dead but I know he is in a better place. I walked out of the cemetery and made my way to my aunts. I was in deep thoughts when I heard someone shout my name.

"Ellie!" I heard a familiar male voice from behind me. I turned around and saw Harry there looking around for me, when he saw me. He stared at me for a bit and then walked towards me. I stood there not wanting to be rude but not knowing what to do.

"Ellie" he said sounding exasperated. I looked at him holding in the tears which were now forming in the corner of my eyes again. He looked like he had not stopped crying either. I looked at him and felt that pull. That stupid pull never did any good. It only caused fun trouble.

"Harry" I said softly.

"You never said it" he said

"How did you find me?" I said looking around.

"That doesn't matter, you never said it" he said trying to keep me back in track

"Said what?" I asked wondering what he was talking about

"I love you" he said.

"Well I didn't think I would have needed to, I thought it was obvious" I explained.

"Oh okay" he stuttered a little confused by my reply

"Well I love you" I said honestly. The first honest thing I've said to him since he's got back. I was looking in a different direction when I said it. I wiped away the tears and then tapped my left upper arm with my right hand.

"I can't do this" I said walking off. I can't lie to him anymore. I just can't. I knew he would be following me so when I turned around to see him, it broke my heart because I am leaving him for his safety, I hope he understands that.

"Can't do what?" He asked. Now I have a choice: tell him and be with him and carry on being in danger or lie to him again. I stood there looking down at my shoes to avoid the conversation

"Well?" He asked pushing me for a answer.

"Please ... Don't" I said not wanting to answer

"Ellie I'm just confused. What's going on?" He said trying to make sense of it all. I huffed as the tears rolled down. He was close to me now and I could hear his fast paced heartbeat.

"I - I" I said stuttering, I looked up into his eyes

"I lied" I said letting go of my tears, making them drop down my check one by one.