The Thought Of You

Chapter nineteen.

I was at Val's house. In his bed. He stared blankly at me with a sad look on his face. He wasn't too close to me, he was farthest on the bed away from me. His hand twitched like he wanted to reach out to me. I stopped screaming and then turned to him.

"You little bitch! YOU- you... You left me! And I- I got.." I trailed off wondering how the fuck did I get in this bed.. His eyes glistened. "You got raped... I know , you already told me.. I'm sorry." Val said outloud. His voice sounded cracking but he wanted me to hear loud and clear."It just happened you lair!" I yelled at him, as tears rolled down my cheeks. He tried to touch me but I jerked my hand away still afriad. "It was just a dream Alex. It happened. But it was just a dream this time. It happened a month ago." 

A month ago? How could this be.. "You've been sick every since. Every night you dream of that wicked day." He frowns. But then I frown I feel something coming up. I run to the bathroom and threw up.

"You know I was looking for you, he just beat me to it" he says. I walk out the bathroom and looked him dead in the eyes. "You left to get the greatest fuck of your life, you weren't looking for me."  I told him. "But I was, I swear it on my l- on my dead body." Whatever. He didn't swear it on his life. I felt jealous he slept with another.

"How was the sex?" I asked not wanting to look up at him. "I regret it so much. There's nothing I could do now to take it back.."  Val says. I looked down at Val's shirt. There was blood all over it. "Val, what happened to you?"  He smiles. "I told you I was going to kill him if he laid a pinky on you" he didn't kill him I'm sure. Just really hit him hard enough to get the blood going. Even with the hate I have for him I still ask if he's okay. "He won't ever contact you again, you'll never see him again. I promise."

Knock knock. I turn to the door. "Who's that" I hiss. "It's James he visits you everyday to see if your okay, you always happen to be sleeping when he comes over so there's not anything to conversate about" Val slowly gets out the bed and walk towards me.

"Let him in, he means no harm. If he does I will be in the bathroom listening okay" he says. He walks into the bathroom and looks at me awkward. "My hands kind of hurt could you close the door?" He asked.

I closed the door and then walked over to the front door. I opened it and there was James his eyes shot open and his jaw dropped. "A- Alex" he says in shock. "What? Weren't here for me then?" I said angry. I still remember what James did to me before I ran off. "Of course I'm here for you, could you please let me in? We should talk." He says. That reminds me that me a Val never got to talk.

I quickly grab a knife and then let him in. Pointing it at him the whole time. As he walked over to the couch I noticed his new features. His hair looked much better then it did a month ago, he has abs now. Who knew that could happen in a month. He looked cleaner, heathier, nicer? Or maybe that's just an act too. He sits on the couch and then looks at me. "You look great." I said, I had to let him know. Incase no one told him and I'm sure no one did from the way he reacted.

"Thank you Alex" he gulps but smiles. He looks at me as if he was looking at some of my new features I had too.He came here to talk but all he's doing is looking at me like a physco.

"So you wanted to talk to me?" I trail off in annoyance. "Yeah, yeah of course" he cleared his throat. "I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for hitting- punching you, I'm sorry for calling you names. I'm sorry you lost alot.. I'm sorry you got abused, I'm sorry for everything." He says.

He seems to be honest about his answers. He didn't look away from me once while he spoke. I could tell he was waiting for me to speak. So I didn't say anything. Silence was for the next five minutes. "Maybe you could find a place in your heart to forgive me?"  "And why should I do that?"